Candy Reader Poetry: A Daughter's Questions
The first time we met, I could remember,
That day I knew that I would love you forever
Your eyes were round, teary on one side,
And your smile you couldn't seem to hide.
You were always there for me, ready to catch my fall.
You'd rush to my side with just a single call.
And then I'd tell you how much you mean to me,
You'd hide it at first but I know I made you happy.
I don't know what happened though,
Did I do something wrong?
Because the music just stopped playing
In the middle of our song.
"Did I hurt you? Please just talk to me.
You know I'm not psychic, I can't tell your feelings."
"Just go already. Leave! I don't wanna talk to you.
You're not what I need. Just leave me alone, go do what you have to do."
You push me away now
Like an unwanted memory,
Like I'm the last person
That you would want to see.
You ignore me like I'm invisible,
Too little to mind at all.
And you wouldn't care if I start begging,
If on my knees, I'd fall.
So who am I to you
Even though you don't love me?
Do I look like someone
Who has ruined your reality?
Who am I to you,
Another stranger from the past?
Someone you loved
But know wouldn't last?
Who am I to you?
Am I still your daughter?
Because I see a monster
In the form of my father.
Who am I to you, dad?
Should I just go away?
I'd leave you with blank paper
And all the words I think I could never say.