I was scrolling through my news feed, expecting something great to satisfy my few-minutes break from hours-long reading and answering modules. I was definitely in such a state of constantly moving my fingers on the screen, finding posts that could make me go wildly laughing or interestingly reading, when I saw a post of a struggling student, stopping me from my trance of meme craving and motivational quote searching.
And, I was right, a familiar hashtag – once again – was powerfully standing out in its end: #AcademicFreezeNOW. Looking back, I was, with all honesty, struggling to open my account in an online learning platform our school is utilizing. I’d been trying so hard, opening my account with all my might. When I thought the following days would give me that opening-my-account need, I didn’t receive anything. It was a totally defeating day, realizing that I excitedly prepared for that previous orientation for online learners our school conducted only to end up with an unprecedented mishap I never thought I would face. Luckily, those days were orientation days and the school was still adapting to the change of learning modalities and stuff. Thus, I remained to be an optimist.
When a chance was given to those who wanted to change their learning modality, I grabbed it. Well, thinking that I still had an option instead of the online modality I was initially in, I felt nothing but relief. When I first got a grip of those modules my mother received from school, I decided to have a quick scan on it and see what they got. To add to that, I gladly read them after and took notes about things printed on it. However, there went a time when I lost my balance and thought that I was losing my time, considering that most of my modular classmates were almost finished answering their modules, and there I was, reading and comprehending every word in them and had never even answered a single activity. “What must I do?” I once asked. Because of my uncontrollable anxiety and panic attacks, I hastily answered every activity present in every module, wanting to finish the same pace as my fellow modular learners. And, I realized I was doing it wrong – I was certainly doing it all wrong.
And so, I took deep breaths. While keeping myself at ease, I decided to watch a YouTube video about how to deal with the modality I was now in. Well, after, there was nothing to do but apply those tips I just watched. Honestly speaking, they were helpful; those are currently what I’m doing these days with bountiful modules on my study table. Though I am, with all the eagerness I still possess, finding myself fine (as of now), reading and answering the modules every day, our television and phone screens are screaming otherwise – displaying students struggling with the “new normal” education.
Reading those posts in various social media platforms, I can say that those sentiments by certain people, mostly by students, are reasonably true. Thinking about it, this is never the world we – learners – imagined ourselves to be in. Once, we were just sitting on our designated seats, talking to friends while break time's up and listening to teachers while class continues. Now, all of a sudden, we just find ourselves either behind screens or behind stacks of printed modules – frustratingly thinking if we can survive this academic year the same way we survived the previous school years we finished. Voices are getting louder, and there’s only one thing I truly desire: I hope the “ears” are doing the work.