Have you ever thought of the future? Of what might actually happen in the future? Will there be more skyscrapers so high it could almost touch the sky? Will we ever see cars flying just above our heads? Have you ever thought of what might happen in your future? Well, it did for me and I considered time as my enemy.
I remember that day so vividly, I just turned 19 nothing special but as I stare outside my window with my blanket hugging me and the Baguio weather inviting me to sleep I thought to myself “what now, Phoebs? What are your plans? What’s your next move?” and with that I instantly felt time was running and I was running out of it. I felt as if the whole world was watching, waiting for my next move towards to what they call as my “future.” Not knowing of what to say or do and with every second, minute, hour passing by I was left with nothing but complete fear. Young as I may seem, with my future still so ahead of me, time was giving me complete anxiety.
Time made me see that it won’t be long until I’ll be graduating college and would be saying my goodbye’s to my closest friends. It won’t be long until I’ll be leaving home to start another adventure as an adult. It won’t be long until I’ll see my parents growing old together. With that said I thought time was unfair, I wasn’t prepared for this. No one told me it would be this fast. Last time I checked I was only a 3-year-old girl running around under the warm touch of the sun and now I’m a 19-year-old college girl having internal debates with herself. But even though I hated time so much it made me realize things, time has given me lessons.
One lesson that I’ll always instill to myself is that to be grateful with the time God has given you. Be grateful with the time you were able to spend with your family, friends, acquaintances and maybe lovers because with time you were given to experience lasting memories to cherish forever. Time would be able to let you go back and maybe remember the first time you fell from your bicycle, the time when you were crying to your friends because of a broken heart and the time you felt nothing but complete happiness. Time maybe unfair but it had it’s reasons and with this I have nothing more to say but enjoy.