They say time heals all wounds, but it has been ages - is heartbreak exempted?

I have forgotten when was the last time we shared a smile - the last time when I saw the glow in your eyes and the last time when you whispered an I love you to me. I have forgotten when, but here I am - writing to you again.

I do not know if you will read this or you will just add this one to my proses and poems that you left unread, but you see, I am still hoping. I am mailing the pain of us to the gods out there - hoping they can take the pain away. I should have gotten over you, but instead of forgetting and accepting our ending, I am writing about us in tissue sheets, carving about us on trees, telling about us on the back of my journals, hoping that a thousand or a million write ups about us, can make me forget about what happened.

I am writing, waiting for the point where I can no longer write anymore, for I have none to tell - but when? I have nothing in me anymore, but the memories of us - and no matter how hard I try put those to its own grave, the memories grow back like lilies in the swamp - painful and beautiful at the same time.

No matter how hard I try to silence those and put it at the back of my mind, those ring back, playing like the favorite song we used to listen. They say heartbreaks turn into poetry and that is what happening to us - but poetry should be dulcet and dreamy, why does ours sound like pain and agony? They say time heals all wounds, but it has been ages - is heartbreak exempted? Darling, I guess not.

Written by me, the one-shot story

Coffee is about a girl who used to cherish moments with someone in a cafe. Sometimes, a simple drink can leave an imprint on someone's mind. ____________________________________________

Coffee

It's been a year since my boyfriend and I broke up. I love him and he loves me too but things just didn't worked  the way it should be. Now I'm heading at the cafe where we started and ended. I have no choice but to go there after all it was made up of both happy and sad memories. But that's life , right? We can't be happy all the time. Challenges come and hearts can break. But it doesn't just end there.

"One signature coffee , please." I said as I ordered from the cashier.

"What size?" she asked.

"Small." I said.

Then she took my payment and I headed towards the seat near the window. A window seat.... for two. The cafe was surprisingly full tonight unlike the past few days.

Again, I have no choice but to sit on that window seat. It is where we sit often. It is our seat. Our place. There are a lot of couples at the cafe and wow I'm alone. There's a part of me which says you should be happy because he's not the only guy in this world. Another part of me says you're still hurt so don't pretend to be happy. The truth is , I am both happy and sad.  I'm happy because we're both free and we can focus more in our careers. But I'm sad because I'm not the other half of his heart anymore. I'm sad because I let him go even though I still love him. I'm sad because I can't see him. I'm sad because I can't share this relaxing coffee shop where we can chill with the aromatic smell of the coffee.

"Small signature coffee?" the waitress said as she serves my coffee.

"Yes. Thank you." I said.

"Since you're a regular customer here, we would like to give you this item for free." the waitress said. She handed me a purple journal with the name of the cafe on it and a pen.

"Oh thanks." I said .

"Enjoy your coffee!" she said.

I took advantage of using the freebies from the cafe. A window seat is also a bonus in inspiring me to write something. While sipping my coffee my brain and my heart began to function smoothly.

And so I wrote: My coffee has been cold lately, I can't feel anything after taking a sip and there's no heat to leave a pain on my lips. And it was a relief. But then, I remember one thing about sipping a cold coffee instead of a hot one: cold coffee doesn't leave you any marks when you sipped it, just like a blunt feeling. But a hot coffee will leave you a remarkable pain from the heat which reminds you that you are alive to feel....

I closed the journal and stared at the window. He was the coffee. The hot coffee. No matter how our breakup hurt me, he left me a mark and a lesson to learn. A hot coffee can be a challenge too or an obstacle. They all made you feel that you are alive. That you can go on with your life. You can still stand up. Love taught me to move forward. He taught me to be stronger. He is love.

WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE A BROKE FANGIRL/FANBOY

One of the proudest things as a fan is the feeling that you are part of their growing fandom and stardom. From streaming their songs online, watching their music videos, TV guestings, collecting photocards, albums, lightsticks, attending to their concert and fan meetings surely, you're a fan! But there's a problem, MONEY.

It's really heartbreaking when you hear that members of your favorite band are coming and their concert is just around the corner but here you are thinking of how to sell one of your kidneys just to go to their concert (kidding).That no matter how much you try to save, it will never be enough for a ticket because you are only a student who has limited resources or if you're an adult, you have bills to pay. So joining a "team bahay" livestream is your last resort, but sometimes even those links don't work!

Of course if there's team bahay there's also "team airport/ team labas", fans who waits at the airport hoping to see their idols upon their arrival. How we wish we could also attend and be part of it, something like shouting their names, fanchants then cry out of happiness while waving their lightsticks or banners. What a concept isn't?

Hey, cheer up! being broke doesn't make you any less of a fan. Know that there are other ways to support and love them. For sure our idols have the same and equal love to us no matter what "team" we belong (team concert, team airport/labas and team bahay).Maybe for some people, they might think we are being overly dramatic without knowing that for us fans, their existence itself and music saved us and made us happy once in our lives. -Gwy June 16,2020

It’s a list of Kdramas about courage and pursuing dreams. A spoiler-free insights also about these series and some words of encouragement.

Title: Feeling hopeless? These K-dramas will inspire you to muster up the courage to pursue your dreams no matter what

There are times that you question the paths life has led you. And most of the times, these are the moments when you get tired of chasing your dreams and on the brink of giving up. You have these thoughts, that’s creeping into your mind saying; “Nothing is happening. This won’t work. I’m never good enough. I’m too young. I’m too old. I’m lacking. I will never be able to do it. That’s too big. It seems impossible.” Or sometimes you’re just plain worn out. Too exhausted to even think about your dreams. But despite of so many hardships, isn’t it beautiful to still think “what does it mean to live the life of your dreams?”

Every once in a while, it’s good to hear stories that could ignite our life once again. Here are the list of Kdramas that will inspire you to muster up the courage to pursue your dreams no matter what

1. DREAM HIGH

“There is a long way to go before your story comes to an end. So don’t be anxious that things are taking longer for you. People who take their time getting to their dreams can see and experience more. And in my opinion it is those who take their time that will really make it big time in the end.” -Kang Oh Hyuk

Aside from the excitement of having to watch an all star casts in one drama (Bae Suzy, Kim Soo Hyun, IU & Taecyeon) this series will also make your heart feel alive and hopeful. It’s about teenagers, with different lives and talents, ended up in the same school, the Kirin Arts High School, an academy for aspiring singers, dancers and songwriters. As the students tried to learn their true potential to reach their aspirations, they will find themselves fighting their own weaknesses and struggling in the life so-called “competitions”.

When you feel like you’re stuck or being left behind, and see your friends and colleagues already achieved their goals, will you feel bitter and envious? Will you stop? Will you change your dreams? Or will you stop comparing and start working harder to improve yourself? Our lives unfold as they should be, at their own pace and on their own timeline. What’s meant for us will arrive at the right time and for the right reasons. This is one of the life lessons you’ll get to see in Dream High as each characters take their own steps to be in the spotlight.

2. FIGHT FOR MY WAY

“What were you doing with your time?”

“I earned money. While they went to study abroad and volunteer, I was earning money.” -Choi, Ae-Ra

The story reveals a harsh truth about adulting life, about the younger generation who are not qualified for what the “perfect” society demands. Without backgrounds such as higher education and professional experience, the world tells them to just keep working on ordinary jobs. Fight For My Way is about Ae-Ra who is working an Information Desk Employee instead of living her life as an Announcer and her best friend Dong-Man who is working as Pest Control Employee instead of pursuing his dreams to become a Professional Mixed Martial Artist.

Truth as it may be, being privilege has a lot of perks. On the other hand, lacks of money limits a person’s opportunity and sometimes it even lower a person’s status. But because they have less doesn’t mean they can’t achieve anything. With the kind of life given to them, they learned to appreciate what they have and make the most out of it. Instead of complaining, they used this to motivate themselves to strive harder to accomplish what they really want. This drama will give you a slice of life as you found yourself rooting for the characters as they go after their dreams with vigor and fighting spirit.

3. ITAEWON CLASS

“I’m a rock. Go ahead and sear me. I won’t budge an inch because I’m a rock. Go ahead and beat me up. I’m a solid rock. Go ahead and leave me in darkness. I’m a rock that will shine all alone. I don’t break, ash, nor decay as I go against nature’s way. I survive. I’m a diamond.” -Diamond Poem by Gwang Jin

A past tragic life. Imprisonment. No family. That’s enough reasons to give up on life, but not for Park Saeroyi. Itaewon Class narrates a story of overcoming darkness. It’s a story of growth and patience. It tells you that life isn’t supposed to be linear. It’s not supposed to be a flat line of happiness and forever smiles. It is a constant surge of ups and downs and of twists and turns. It tells you that life wasn’t meant to be easy. But it will also show you that failure will one day lead you to your destiny. That you need first to be broken in order to shine, to be crushed and pressured in order to transform.

Park Saeroyi will teach you how to fight your way back in life. Fall down seven times, and he will stand up eight. Ruin his dreams and he will show you he got backup plans. In this journey, he found friends that helped him build his dreams and make him a better person, just like in our own lives. People will come our way to encourage us, help us, teach us and support us.

In this drama, you will learn to cope up with fears of the unknown as you have people who will walk side by side with you until the end of the race. --- Whoever you are, whether you are in your teenage years, 20’s or 30’s, or whatever season you’re in, whether you’re starting another chapter of your life or you’re closing another one, may your heart never ceased to hope and dream. If you get tired, it’s okay to take a break and rest. Then get up the following day and start taking steps again toward your goals.

I know it’s easier said than done. But I hope and pray that you find your motivations, your reasons, your purpose. I hope that you find the things that will ignite your heart and life to continue dreaming. P.S. The OSTs of these dramas will also inspire you and can give you major LSS ????