"People won't call you selfish if you prioritize yourself"
"..you are always strong and silent that people forget you are suffering too."
To be honest, I don't really know how you can deal with everything that's happening to you especially when you are the "go to" person of everyone. How do you handle those things, do u have a superpower? You are the person who is always there when someone is in a rough day. You are always there to listen on their unending rants. You are there to make them smile with your corny and witty jokes. You are there when someone wants a shoulder to cry on.
It makes me wonder, who is there when you need help? I worry that people might take you for granted. People might abuse your kindness, and worst is they might hurt you emotionally. But then, you still smile. You don't care what may happen, you still have the energetic face and strong aura to face them. It makes me think, why are you doing this? Did someone hurt you in the past that you don't want others to feel it? What are the reason behind that strong aura that you always show to people? I know you won't spill it, but let me tell you this.
Sometimes, you don't always have to be there to everyone. You don't need to always answer their calls or reply to their messages. You don't have to be generous all the time because to tell you frankly, your kindness might break you. People might walk over you. I want to telll you that not all people are precious like you who always forgive and forget. You aren't required to be there always. You also need to leave a room for yourself. Kindness is good but if peole are already taking you for granted, you need to stop and leave. Take a break.
People won't call you selfish if you prioritize yourself. Learn to love yourself first because no one will help you in that battle, it is just you and you. Again, it is okay to feel vulnerable. It is okay not to be there 24/7. It is okay not be with them always. Take a time for yourself. Take a break from this chaotic world and just listen to your favorite song or read a good book...because trust me, you need this... For you are always strong and silent that people forget you are suffering too.