Re: Sayonara [Fortune4.] Separation Part 2

[carlene27]

Sayonara

They say that, if you’re brave enough to say goodbye, life will reward you with a new hello.

I fell in love with him.

Love has blessed us both happiness.

But, our love story has a time limit.

And I couldn’t stop myself from asking, “Why us?”

“Can’t we just love each other and be happy?”

“Can’t he live longer?”

I was an idiot for asking all of these.

The answer was in front of me all this time.

No. We can’t be happy.

No. He can’t stay longer.


Will it be selfish to wish and pray with all my might, for him to live longer, to marry him, to have kids with him, to be happy with him?

I just realized that no matter how much I want to hear the answer, the pain it will bring, I wouldn’t be able to endure it.

Our time is finally up, but I never regret loving him, and if someday, I am blessed enough to meet him again, I’ll never hesitate to fall in love with him again, even if it would hurt so much.

No matter how many times, I will definitely fall in love with you but for now, Sayonara.

Our love has a time limit, but I know, for certain, it lasted a lifetime.

Happy New Year everyone. I've spent hours thinking whether to post this or not. Sana talaga may magbasa. *cross fingers*  Warning: This is a very sad but inspiring story. I was inspired by the Japanese movie, I give my first love to you, so here you go. Hope you like it.

[curiousity kills]

Oh, you posted it na!
Title pa lang, I know it's gonna be sad. <////3
Prologue, super ouch for the girl. Miracle, please?
Hehe. Good luck on this Carlene! Will support this1:)

[fragilethorn]

I watched that, too. It made me cry. Really. Good luck with this, but I hope it's somehow different from "I Give My First Love to You"

I expect that this won't be like, uhmm.. the novel version of the movie. K?

[Eyo.]

Our love has a time limit, but I know, for certain, it lasted a lifetime.

Why so sad? But for me, tragic/sad stories are more realistic. Sooo, support!

[oOokitinoOo]

CARLENE!!
Omg. I love the prologue! 
I will support this!

[mi.chuu.ko]

i love it! ang sad ng prologue..
i've seen that movie, grabe tearjerker </3
hello po! i'm paula! i'll support this story

[animeaijin21]

SUPPORT Weeee Nihongo :p Atashi wa Nihongo ga tottemo daisuki desu... Haha wala lang po. Shei here, 16 years old. Yoroshiku

[carlene27]

Prologue

February 14, 2009

Dear Diary,

I sometimes wonder, do hearts have memories? If my heart was transferred with somebody else’s, will it carry out the love I have for him? Will it tell its new owner to find him? Will it fill its new owner the same happiness, sadness, pain and regret that I felt? Will our love, maybe….last?



I closed my diary before a teardrop fell and ruin the ink; I opened the drawer at the right side of my bed and put my precious diary inside. Inside that drawer was, another precious thing, maybe the most painful yet happiest memory I have. It was a memory held captive, a captured motion that moved again, in my mind together with my heart. It was our first picture, a picture when we were just kids.

It’s funny that just by looking at our picture, it would trap me between what was and what could be. It is true that you never leave someone behind; you take a part of them with you and leave a part of yourself behind. We were laughing, as if the world only exist for us, as if we were the happiest persons alive, well that time, I was the happiest girl alive. It was priceless. We were surrounded by chrysanthemum, a flower that symbolizes great happiness and perfection. A tear was about to fall from my eyes again.

I closed the drawer before, the memories journey back again and I wouldn’t be able to stop it. But it is too late. My memories, no…our memories played again, with my heart as the main source, its reliving our past. Our love.

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animeaijin21- Hi Shei-chan! I'm Carlene, I'm also 16. I love anything related Japanese also, but sadly, hindi ako marunong magsalita ng Japanese, but I'm trying. I want to learn din kasi. Wish me luck! Arigatou Gozaimasu Shei-chan!

mi.chuu.ko- Hi Paula! IKR? I mean, parang baldeng luha yung nawala sakin. It was awkward din kasi my mom was like, Why are you crying? and what I did was point the computer monitor. I love sad stories too, wala lang, kasi it will leave you inspired and open to reality hindi katulad ng happy endings. Thanks for supporting!

oOokitinoOo- Thanks Kitin! Thanks talaga, it means a lot. HAHA! I really hope that I would be able to touch the hearts of my readers by this story. (but not literally xD)

Eyo.- I agree. Sad and tragic stories keep it real, it will leave you with so many lessons and it will help you to be open to reality. It may be sad, but it will be totally worth it! I'm Carlene nga pala, what's your real name? Thanks for being here it means a lot.

fragilethorn- Don't worry, it won't. The movie and the manga was just my inspiration, somehow you will find some similarities, but it's not like the novel version of the movie. Thanks for the support. Thumbs up sa mga umiyak sa nakapanood nung movie.

curiousity kills- Bee! Thanks! Miracle? It will come, I guess...I hope. Ouch talaga para dun sa girl. Ang sakit lang. <//3 But nevertheless, she'll be loved.

[animeaijin21]

weee Carlene pareho pala tayong 16. anyway... para sa akinsuper dali matutunan ng japanese i mean second siya na madaling matutunan sa english. mahirap chinese e -_- then sa korean mejo mahirap. wala lang ^^ ang saya...

[[[cza.chi21]]]

Hello po Ate Carlene :> FC po ako. Sorry XD Anyways, napanood ko din po yung I Give My First Love To You kaya super isu-support ko po 'to :]] Thana here pala ^^

[carlene27]

Fortune1. The Beginning


White Clover Hospital, Japan November 3, 19xx

Back then, I’m only 8, a little who girl who will undergo surgery, a little girl who is wondering, “What does it really mean to live, to breathe, to be alive? And he answered it all for me.

“Why can’t time be at my side? Why does it keep moving? Why can’t everything just be the way I wanted it to be? I don’t want anyone’s heart inside of me! I like the one inside of me right now! The perfect places for hearts are inside its owner. The perfect place where it belongs, and the only place it belongs is in me! Please don’t take my heart away from me!” She can’t stop from crying, usually she makes people around her intimidated by acting like an adult which was really convincing and a little amusing considering that she’s only eight, but tonight the true eight year old Chihiro is throwing tantrums and throwing questions that might be or never will be answered.

[Author's Note: Chihiro means, a thousand questions in Japanese.]

“Chihiro, please stop crying. I know how much you treasure your heart, but your heart has a time limit. We need to change it before you…” Her pitiful father can’t bring himself to say the next word. Chihiro’s mom, his loving wife died because of a heart failure, and unfortunately little Chihiro inherited the same disease from her mom and he’ll do everything to prevent death from taking away his daughter’s life.

“You know Chihiro-chan, when your mom died two years ago, I was devastated and I know you were too. Her absence pains me but what pains me more is the fact that I wasn’t able to take away your mother’s pain. She also refused to undergo heart surgery, I am a doctor Chi, hearts are my specialty but I failed to save her, I failed to save your mom. And I promised her and myself that I won’t fail to save you, you are the only one I have left. Please baby, please understand. I don’t want to lose you too.” Chihiro wiped her father’s tears away. She could somehow feel that her pain is nothing compared to her father’s.

Kenji Tatsuya hugged her daughter before leaving for another heart operation. Kenji is a half Filipino, half Japanese and is only in his late twenty’s yet he is considered one of the most reliable and the most promising heart surgeon in the country. Right after he graduated from Harvard University at the age of 23 because of his exceptional intelligence and talent, he flew back to Japan and met Chihiro's mom, Ayumi. From the moment they set eyes to each other, they knew it was love but life can never be perfect. After six years of a happy marriage, Ayumi died because of a heart failure. She refused to undergo surgery because for her, taking other’s hearts is murder.

“Dr. Kenji! Thank God you’re here, its Tsubasa.” Without uttering anymore words, Dr. Tatsuya and the nurse both hurried to Tsubasa's room which was just a floor above where they were.

He was three doors away from Tsubasa-kun’s room but he can already hear Tsubasa-kun’s voice.

“Why can’t time be at my side? Why does it keep moving? Why can’t everything just be the way I wanted it to be? I heard Dr. Tatsuya mentioned that I only have 12 years to live…or less. Why me, mom? Why? Why is there a hole in my heart?” Somehow, Tsubasa-kun reminded him about his daughter who was asking the same questions earlier.

“I’m so sorry, baby. If I could, I would make the pain go away.” Mrs. Inoue, Tsubasa's  mother, owner of one of the country’s most successful clothing line, which she named after her son is crying, the strong woman behind Sky of Wings Company is now showing so much vulnerability. Her husband unfortunately died a few years ago because of a car accident.

"Tsubasa, what is your dream?" Out of pure curiosity and amusement, Tsubasa suddenly stopped from crying, faced Dr. Tatsuya and answered with full of confidence and conviction,"I want to become a Doctor myself, I will create a cure for my disease and save every heart. I will close all of their holes. Because....I'm afraid to...because..I want to live." Mrs. Inoue, got up from her seat which was behind Tsubasa's bed and hurried outside. Dr. Tatsuya already knows that she can't take it anymore, the pain is just too inevitable.

Kenji asked that question because he felt that he needed to. He walked towards Tsubasa's bed and the nurse followed him.

"I want you to meet someone." He patted Tsubasa's head and smiled.

The door suddenly flew open and behind it was, Kenji's daughter Chihiro. Holding her half pig half dinosaur stuffed toy with a puzzled look in her face.

Back then, I never realized that the our time has already started.

[[cza.chi21]]- Thanks! Please enjoy the update! I hope you like it.

animeaijin21- I agree. Goodluck saken!

[curiousity kills]

Carlene. How art thou?
Anyway, the first chapter was really great. I like how you introduced the characters.
Ugh, poor young hearts have to suffer from disease. </3 Haha. (Lol, including me. Me sakit din kasi ako sa puso) Please do continue. Will waiiiiit. <3

[carlene27]

curiousity kills- Thanks Bee! Oh, I didn't know na meron ka palang sakit sa puso. Now I know, it must've been hard. Oh, I don't know. Well, I'm really planning on continuing. The next chapter is dedicated for you Bee! Tsubasa will heal you. HAHA!

[oOokitinoOo]

Carlene! Hello~~ ^________^


Ohmygee. GOOSEBUMBS lang ang reaction ko. I can't explain it. Nosebleed ako pero i can feel pain and loneliness sa story mo. TT____________TT ayun, affected ako masyado. :| Bakit kelangang may heart chuva yung two kids? TT____________TT

[carlene27]

Fortune2. Subete no kanzen'na sora.

“Hey Otousan, I can’t sleep.” [Otousan= Father] Chihiro said with a disturbing look on her face. She normally calls her father Chichi which is less formal than Otousan, but she was suddenly bothered by the attention her father’s giving to the little boy around her age that is steadily sitting at his bed looking at her frowning. She gave him a smirk and continued to approach her father.

“Oh Chi, I want you to meet Tsubasa-kun. Tsubasa-kun, this is my daughter Chihiro.” Dr. Tatsuya dragged her daughter closer so they’ll see each other more properly, which made Chihiro a little annoyed and Tsubasa’s face seem to be telling the same.

“Sensei, do you think I can be a doctor like you?” [Sensei=Teacher/Doctor] Tsubasa intentionally avoided Chihiro’s glares and continued to have a decent conversation with Dr. Tatsuya. He was smiling like any normal eight year old boy talking to his father. Dr. Tatsuya nodded and gave him a faint smile. The Doctor’s mind wanders and his heart aches a little bit for the boy he believes that won’t make it till twenty.

“Otousan, it is time for you to sing me Okasan’s lullaby.” [Okasan=Mother] She deliberately dragged her father, pulling his white waist-length long-sleeved jacket. Right after her mom died, his father’s attention was only to her and that will never change, not with anybody, not with that boy she thought.

“Sensei, you will come back tomorrow right? Let’s talk again.” The Doctor patted his head and then finally went out with Chihiro who was smirking and intentionally turned around to show Tsubasa her alleged victory.

The hospital’s hallway during night is not at all dark; truth is it is full of lights that for Chihiro are weird and ironic. She was hand in hand with her father when a nurse came running in, panting.

“Doctor, it’s an emergency!” Without looking at her, her father let go of her hand and run, leaving her alone at the bright hallway that echoed her father’s footsteps. She was used to it but her heart isn’t. For her letting go means goodbye forever. A painful memory made her tears to come out.



“Nakanaide.” [Don’t Cry.] She was startled by the sudden voice behind her. She wiped her tears away; she never showed any weakness to anybody. She turned to look at him with a stern face.

“Watashi wa naite inai yo.” [I’m not crying] She forced to smile to convince him that everything is okay. But that didn’t fool him. He walked closer to her, pulling something out of his right pocket.

He wiped her remaining tears using the handkerchief he received from her mom on his sixth birthday. He has always treasured it, he never really used it but right now he somehow felt that someone really needs it badly.

"Omaette honto ni baka dana a. Dete ike!" [You’re really stupid!] [Go away] She pushed him but that didn’t really seem to bother him. For some strange reasons, her tears can’t stop from falling and she is beginning to be mad at herself because of the sudden vulnerability she is showing, especially to him, to her enemy.

“Nakanaide.” He walked a little bit more closely to her again, this time there’s no more space between them. He’s hugging her already. That hug is like an assurance that everything is going to be alright and if it doesn’t, he is willing to hug her until she is ready and not afraid anymore.

“Nande? Nande?!” [Why?]

That night, all she did was cry and all he did was hug her and make her comfortable and satisfied. Without noticing it, they both feel asleep in the same bed, hugging each other as if afraid to let each other go.

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“Me wo sameru!” [Wake up] Tsubasa didn’t show any signs of waking up so she shoved him continuously.

“Ya..me..te.” [Stop] His groggy voice made her even more determined.

“Okiru.” [Get up] He continued to ignore her and made his way to dreamland again.

“Okiru ya watashi wa anata ni kisu yo.” [Get up or I’ll kiss you!”]

“Ike.” [Go] Without any hesitation she kissed Tsubasa-kun. He abruptly opened his eyes and pushed her away. His eyes are now wide open, showing anger. He brushed his lips using his right arm. Chihiro just smirked and from the look on her face, she is now satisfied because for her, she won again. She waked him up.

“Yah! Nande?! Why did you kiss me?! Kimochi warui .” [Why?] [Disgusting] She ignored him and continued to look out at the window.

“Mite yo.” [Look] Tsubasa’s anger drifted away the moment he looked outside. The sky is full of shooting stars.

“Subete no kanzen'na sora.”  [A sky full of shooting stars.]

It is 2:00 in the morning, but for them, it would be a shame to miss such an opportunity, to miss these shooting stars. They continued to watch it. And an idea came to both of them in an instant; they looked at each other and said, “Make a wish.”

“I wish to make you happy. I’ll be by your side forever.” He was startled by her sudden confession. Just hours ago, she was being a brat, she was being mean to him but now, here she is wishing to be with him forever. She even kissed him for crying out loud! “I know from the moment you hugged me that we are made for each other. Do you understand?!”

“W-Wakarimashita.” [I understand] She smiled. She doesn’t understand it herself but Tsubasa became an important part of her life all of a sudden, to be honest she had known him ever since he was sent to their hospital for the first time, they were both five back then.

“Hey, what is your wish?” She was expecting him to say the same, to stay by her side forever but he answered, “I want to be a heart Doctor just like your dad.” That made her a little disappointed but he continued, “So that I can fix our hearts and then marry you when we are twenty. You can’t marry anyone but me. Do you understand?!”

“Wakarimashita!” They both smiled and continued to watch the stars.

“Chihiro-chan, I’ve always heard your name from the nurses here at the hospital and I’ve always wanted to meet you and be your friend but I’ve always been afraid to approach you. You may be acting like an adult to the nurses here but whenever I sneak out to see you, you’re always crying and holding your half pig half dinosaur stuffed toy. I never felt sorry for you, but I’ve always had that urge to come to you and hug you just like earlier.” It was her time to be shocked by his sudden confession. Never did she expect for someone do that. She was touched. She felt that connection between them again, and she was certain that he can feel it too.

“Hey Tsubasa-kun, lets make a vow. Chichi said that nobody has broken a vow before. I promise to never leave your side no matter what happens. I’ll always be here for you. Aishiteru yo.”  [I love you] That made him blush. They may be too young for love, but for them, what they are feeling now will last beyond forever. Their connection, no one will be ever to break it.

“I promise to make you the happiest bride there is. Aishiteru yo Chihiro-chan.”


oOokitinoOo- Kitin! Wow, thanks for dropping by! Hope you like it. Haha, sensya matagal ang update. Nosebleed ba? HAHA! Natawa naman ako. Ayan ha! Ako din eh, mahirap pala gumawa ng pure english story. Nakakawindang lang! Anyway sana magustuhan mo tong update.