Lost Soul of the Strong Maiden. [MOVED]

[khea~issh]

No worries po, i totally understand, and besides, ang galing mo nga magenglish ee , kakainggit

[thecagedDOLL]

Star, haha, no seriously, your updates are better. I'm a fan! <3
Yeah.. heartbreaking, but I love dramas. Keep up the good work dear!
Looking forward to your next update. (:

[.starr.]

Miss Tattered, thank you. Kinakabahan na naman tuloy ako because you are reading my story. c:

Thank you Khea! Puro grammatical errors nga ata pinaglalagay ko dito eh. Haha.

Gee, dear. Oh I should be saying that. Ako kaya fan mo no. Hihi c:

[.starr.]

THREE.
I do not love you except because I love you.


That day was the last day of the final examinations. It was a plain March afternoon, hot and humid. And we decided to end the semester with alcohol. I remember being unusually quiet.

"You look hilarious Kaye. Ha ha ha." Sylvia was laughing her heart out while holding her glass of beer. They were happy. And I wasn't.

I was seated on the far end corner of the long table and smoking my third cigarette, listening to their laughs and giggles. Somehow, being with friends just wasn't good enough, I thought.

"Mari.." I heard Mia called my name and I immediately looked at her and puffed the last of my now consumed cigarette.

"Mhm? What was it again?" I asked. They were all staring at me like I was one party pooper. "I'm sorry, I was just thinking about how I did in the exams." I lied.

"Oh you sure are, Paula. Come on. You were never a good liar, you know." Kaye pulled out a face and stuck her tongue out at me. I almost laughed.

"You want me to cut it out for you, Kaye?" I raised my glass for a toast. It really wasn't good enough.

Hours passed and when we were close to being irresponsibly drunk, I caught a guy from the other end of the room staring at us. Or at me. I really didn't know. I was drunk enough to care.

I felt a nudge. And heard a whisper. "Two hours. He's been looking at you for two long hours already, Alain." Veronica said. I raised a brow.

He...looked fine. Presentable enough. He was wearing a black semi-fitted shirt. And yes ladies, he ehem alright. He was HOT. Yummy, delicious, whatever you have to describe guys with nice broad shoulders and well-built muscles. I was never good with descriptions, too.

"And?" I replied. All of them had this same weird expressions on their faces and I knew. I was going to be the bait this time. Because we were drunk. Period.

I nodded. "Fine. Just...for this day alright?" And they all went crazy. "Full name? Mobile phone number? Address? Girlfriend? What do you want to know??" I asked while simply eyeing the hot guy from across the bar. I noticed he was smiling. And if I wasn't heartbroken enough, I would have smiled back. But I tried. And I saw his friends cheering him on. What the fudge? Boys...

I stood up and started walking, smiling. Fixing my uniform along with my hair.  I was halfway there when I heard Kaye exclaimed. "And a two minute kiss. Then you're off the hook darling!" I stopped dead on my tracks. A kiss, eh?

This won't hurt. I said to myself.

His friends call him Jake. Major in Architecture, 19 and the sweetest of them all? NO GIRLFRIEND. I can hear Kaye beaming with excitement in my ear.

"I uh, actually. My friends and I are on a dare. I uhh..." I was surprised to hear indecisiveness in my voice.

"Yes. So I've heard. Weird friends huh?" He smiled like the most gorgeous man on earth. "I...don't mind Mari." Well, he was a sport.

I smiled and went to face Mia and company. They were all eyes on the soon-to-happen kiss. I just shook my head.

I don't really remember who initiated the kiss but I found myself kissing him back. It was...sweet. And enticing. Kissing a stranger was never on my list. But a broken heart can do lots of foolish things, agree?

"Oy! What you doing here Simon??" I froze.

"Hey, what's wrong?" Jake asked with the almost unbelievable affection in his voice. Great.

I turned around and there, I saw that one pair of eyes staring right through me. Like he'd seen a ghost. Simon...


To be continued.

[khea~issh]

OMO. kissing a stranger. owell, ayos naman kung hot ee =))  LOL. joke, cute ng update, sobrang freedom sila T.T XD

[thecagedDOLL]

But a broken heart can do lots of foolish things, agree?

This is what I love most about your writing, Star. :"> I like all your lines here. Simple pero may after effect. Tama nga naman, a broken heart can do lotsa foolish things. :3 I couldn't agree more.

Weh, hindi kaya. Ako kaya ang fan mo. ;P

[.starr.]

Hahaha. Thank you Khea! Ang loyal mo na reader, super. c:

Aww. That's just sooo sweet, Gee. :"> Mhm. Pero sige, tatanggapin ko na. THANK YOU! Basta, you're one of my favorite authors here. Period. c:

[thecagedDOLL]

Yehey! Tinanggap mo. ((: Thanks!
I'm looking forward sa next update mo.
I wonder what would happen next. Your writing keeps me guessing. I like it. <3
AAAAAAHHH. am I too sweet now, Starrrrr? XDDDD

[.starr.]

FOUR.
Let's move on, shall we?


"So, you kiss random guys now." Disgust. I did not like the disgust written on his handsome face. It was a statement. Like he knew every fiber of my being. I felt nothing but remorse.

"Oh." I blinked twice. He was towering over my five foot six inches height that made it more clear. He was playing the victor.

"So you care about me...now." I mimicked. We were standing twenty or so inches away from each other, looking straight into each other's eyes. I saw the three months worth of memories flash across my face. Nostalgic.

"Never mind. I really don't care anyway." He added, shrugged and then started walking away from where I was. I was shocked. To actually hear such coldness from him. From that guy. From Simon who just dumped me three days ago. I felt like cursing him to death.

With his wide back at me, my hands clutched the side of his sleeves. "Say that again one more time Simon." It came out as a command. He stopped and faced me.

"I. Really. Don't. Care. Anyway." He obediently said. Although I saw his eyes flicker. An illusion maybe. I don't know.

"One...one more time." I said, staring into his eyes. My eyes were starting to water and my body was starting to shake. "One more time Simon." I insisted.

I think I needed to hear it a dozen of times before it sinks in. It was heartbreaking. Never a good feeling to share.

"What the--"

"Just say it, damn it!" I shouted. I was seriously shaking.

He tried loosening my grip on his shirt but it was useless. He took both my hands in his instead. I was surprised. But I was still shaking.

"Listen Mari...look me in the eyes." His voice was soft while cupping my chin and making me face him. I was looking at the tiled flooring of the bar. "Listen. I...honey. Com--"

"Fvck you." I hissed.

He was taken aback, I could see that. But what can I do. A girl in distress is given every right in the world to curse. His eyes were softly staring at me, like he never dumped me and all. His hands still on mine. In my mind, I was silently cursing him to death. "Fvck you, Simon. Fvck you. Just...let me go." I snatched away my hands, simply wiped away tears from my face and fixed my hair.

"This'll be the last time you will ever say that to my face, Simon. Remember that. Tomorrow, I'll forget every thing about you." I turned my back at him. I walked past our table and walked out of the bar.

It felt like seriously, totally walking out of his life.

[thecagedDOLL]

"One...one more time." I said, staring into his eyes. My eyes were starting to water and my body was starting to shake. "One more time Simon." I insisted.

I think I needed to hear it a dozen of times before it sinks in. It was heartbreaking. Never a good feeling to share.

"What the--"

"Just say it, damn it!" I shouted. I was seriously shaking.

He tried loosening my grip on his shirt but it was useless. He took both my hands in his instead. I was surprised. But I was still shaking.

"Listen Mari...look me in the eyes." His voice was soft while cupping my chin and making me face him. I was looking at the tiled flooring of the bar. "Listen. I...honey. Com--"

"Fvck you." I hissed.

This scene was heartbreaking. </3 But I love it. So heartfelt, Star.
I almost cried.

Makes me wonder. What happened between the both of them.
Great update, as usual!

[.starr.]

Mahal na kita ng bongga, Gee. :"> Thank you soooooo much! And yessss, you are really sweet. Wala na kong masabi. Masyadong nakakataba ng puso. c:

[thecagedDOLL]

Star, mas mahal kitaaaaa. :"> Mahal ko ang stories mo. I've always been following you & your works. AHHHHH. Hrrrng~ Haha. (: Keep up the good work. I'll check this thread from time to time, alrightie? <3 Goodnight, Star!!

[.starr.]

FIVE.
Move on, do nothing and smile.


Enemies. I never really understood the meaning of this. Cursing someone to death, wishing him lots of pain to feel, having that irritating feeling just thinking about him...that was how I consider someone as an enemy.

But it all changed. How could two people who used to fall head over heels for each other turn out to be the best pair of enemies in the world? I couldn't think of someone more worthy. I loathe him. Just as how he loathes me.

I was surprised to have received one message from him. One short message after three days. But I was even more surprised about what it said.

I'm not weak. *insert bad word here* It was the first time he ever cussed at me. Like he really meant it. I felt my heart breaking and cursing at the same time. How could two people be like that to each other?

But I wasn't wrong. Nor was Mia when she said he was weak to have dumped me just like that. He was wrong when he left me hanging. He was selfish and inconsiderate and he only thinks of himself. He used to care for me a lot. I used to.

Another's. He will be another's.

I found out he was courting another girl. And it was she who made him like that. All those times I was trying my best to give it my all, it was all her doing. I wanted to slap him hard on the face to let him feel how bad I felt like. It was because of another woman that my heart was breaking into pieces. I never really liked the feeling. Who would?

I exhausted myself over volleyball the next day. And it never helped to have had my right arm swell like hell. It's good to feel pain on the outside than on the inside.

And up to this day, I still remember the feeling of that pain on my arm. The kind of pain that takes everything you have. That kind of pain that makes you want to forget everything you've been through. That bearable yet painful as to be intolerable pain that reaches for your soul. And tears it apart in an instant.

It always make me remember how bad my heart was broken. And how severe my soul was lost.

My soul can never ever be whole again.