Lost Soul of the Strong Maiden. [MOVED]

[.starr.]

It would have been better for these feelings if he wasn't on the other side of the world, happily thinking. Carefully thinking of how to win this particular girl's heart. Like how he used to charm his way over mine just two, three months ago.

It would have been easier to forgive but never forget. That's what I knew. I learned not to feel. You can learn not to. Then, I wouldn't have to try and piece my lost soul back together.

[akosidaph]

nice intro. LOST SOUL of THE STRONG MAIDEN. grabe, nacucurious ako. kasi naman eh, kakaiba, parang tungkol nga sa love pero yung title is just very catchy for me. HAHA.

ANYWAY, i'll support this (: first story po?

I'm daph, 15 (:

[.starr.]

Hi Daph. My third story actually. Thank you po. c:

[.starr.]

ONE.
Another's. He will be another's. Like my kisses before.


"Are you ok now? I hope you are. This... this is for good. *smiley*" And this is what I, Mari Alain Paula, deserved for a farewell message from the guy I came to like since two, three months ago. I remember it all too well. Oh just about everything last night. My heart started beating frantically. My breathing all came too heavy to bear. My hands were shaking. I could feel my heart breaking into pieces.

Mem'ries of him came flooding to blind my now teary eyes. I couldn't move an inch. What the fvck is this Paula. I asked myself. I'm dreaming, am I?

No. This is not about some guy breaking up with me and leaving my heart crushed into bits. Guess I already saw this coming. But because I was too busy with my own stubborn little life that I chose not to entertain it much. And this is the night I was dreading for. He was leaving me.

I find it funny, actually. That I'm not scared of what he would say next. That I'm not scared of what he'd say to inflict more pain than he'd already caused. But I can feel my own fear of what I would say to him. Afraid that I might push him away all the more. But this is what I do best. Pushing people away when I'm hurt. This is my comfort zone.

"What the fvcking hell? I can kill you right now, y'know. You're not supposed to ask if I'm doing fine because I. Have. Never been better since you left. That's for good? Go ahead. You wouldn't come back even if I cried blood here now, would you? You're different? OH YOU ARE AN EXACT REPLICA HONEY." I replied.

Silence.

And this is the part where it all registered in my head. He was leaving me. My whole body went rigid. As if it was not capable of moving anymore. As if every part of my being went out to him. To find him. But he was leaving me.

May it be because of another woman, or a past love. I don't really know or care. All I seemed to care that night was my weak heart and my lost soul.

I was never to be seen whole again.

[thecagedDOLL]

Star! you have a new story again! Yehey!
I'll keep an eye. - Gee.

[khea~issh]

nice , tho~ nosebleed ako sa intro and first chap  , pero its fine naman , I find it very interesting, sana icontinue mo , it's nice naman ee . and pede pa plug dito?. Btw, Khea here =), 15 >.<"
Please do support my first ever story posted here at CC, i know that this is a bit awkward but i need readers to tell me if my story is not good or something else, i just need readers and supporters too , Btw, here's the link >> http://www.candymag.com/teentalk/index.php/topic,199011.0.html
a little reading won't eat you 

[.starr.]

Hi Gee. I hope to finish this soon enough. Thank you for keeping watch. c:

Hello Khea. Thank you for such wonderful words. And oh. Sure. Go ahead with the plugging. I don't mind. c:

[for.my.angel]

This is interesting, would like to read more... 

[ella.ella.ella]

WOW. This is, WOW. 
Gonna support this.
Hello there, I'm Ella. Please update asap? 

[.starr.]

for.my.angel: What a lovely user name you have there. c: thank you for reading! Will post an update later.

Ella, hi. Your comment made me smile ever since I woke up. Thank you very much. c:

[.starr.]

TWO.
I loved him, and sometimes he loved me too.


I fell asleep last night with this unbearable pain in my chest. Like it was about to explode and my heart couldn't actually contain it. Were you always this weak Paula, I asked myself again. I cried myself to sleep. Crying and thinking, crying and thinking. All over again. Like it was my same old routine for a broken heart. I cried like it was the end of the world. I haven't cried like this for the past three years.

I woke up the next morning feeling...nothing. Not even a hint of sadness and longing and that now unfamiliar pain. Neutral. I felt neutral.

I grabbed my phone and that feeling of neutrality still stayed with me. I grasped it all too tightly. Never letting it slip away. There was a message from him.

"I'm sorry. I couldn't bring myself to tell you the truth even though I know I'm hurting you already. I'm sorry...but I don't love you anymore. Still, everything I said was true..." And the rest was history. How could one possibly tell you that he doesn't love you anymore and still tell you that what he said was true? He was leaving me. And he was being absurd.

"Maybe because...you curse too much?" Veronica said. Nah. He was just always laughing whenever I curse.

"Or maybe because...you always talk about your ex-boyfriend and some other guys flirting with you?" Sylvia said while nodding. Naah, it was just for the sake of something mundane to talk about. And I wasn't flirting back.

"Because you were always hard on him Mari. Was never sweet enough to be his girlfriend. Was always strong enough than he actually is. That's why." Mia shared half-interestedly. Then I found myself staring at her.

I was always harsh on him, that's why. He left me because I was protecting my heart and being strong. How could one man just leave you because of that? I...am not capable of understanding what he wanted me to understand.

From that moment to this time, twenty nine hours and thirty minutes, I haven't heard anything from him. And from time to time I would find myself staring into nothing and just thinking. Making it all the more clear to me that I have lost him.

He was never to be seen back in my arms again.

[thecagedDOLL]

Star! That was an awesome update. (:
Heartbreaking. Bringing me back to the old times. (:
Pretty nostalgic.

"Because you were always hard on him Mari. Was never sweet enough to be his girlfriend. Was always strong enough than he actually is. That's why."

- Awww. Mari... you had reasons, right?

[khea~issh]

yaahhh~!.  nice update po, tho~ eto nanaman ako nosebleeding to death  , LOL. I hope you can update more  , Pretty awesome 

[.starr.]

Thank you dear Gee. But my updates are nothing compared to yours. c: I'm breaking your heart now, am I not? <3

Khea, hi. I'm sorry. Medyo sanay kasi ako pag English yung working language nung story eh. Hihi. I apologize. But thank you. I'll post an update tomorrow. Me still have the last two exams for this freaking semester. I hope you understand. c:

[Tattered]

I like the fact that you used Paula's strength as their relationship's downfall. Will keep watch.