ENTRY NUMBER 7
February 14, 2011So here I am acting as if everything happened in a fast forward manner. The new of Duke and I living together spread like wildfire and the next thing we both know is us acting all couple-y simply because it's Valentine's day.
At home, or should I say Duke's home, we both act as if we're strangers we don't talk much there. We talk sure, but that only happens when we fight. Being in school is a whole new different Duke and Venice psuedo relationship.
I swear every time I pass by my so-called sister, I can feel daggers being thrown at me. She can't seem to get over the fact that I am now dating the hottest guy in school.
I met Duke at the cafeteria. I don't see the point of us acting as if in a relationship anymore. It is obvious that Claire will no longer rekindle her old flame with Duke.
And newsflash, William's been avoiding me like the plague eversince Duke and I started "dating". Rumor has it, in the person of Sierra, she said he's probably brokenhearted since he's been secretly in love with me since we met. Which is ridiculous.
I saw Duke sitting in our usual spot, a single rose and boxes of chocolates are all resting comfortably in the table. We need to straight things out.
"Hey." he said brushing his hair through his fingers. Fvck! How can he act so cool! Better end this now Venice before things get messy. Worst, before you fall in love.
"we need to talk." I started, he just smiled.
"Err." I fumbled, words seem to flee off my brain.
"Eat first." he answered pushing his food tray towards me. I grabbed the sandwich and ate a mouthful.I started chewing slowly as I formulate my defense in my brain.
"Ok. Here it goes."But he just stared at me.
"What?!""Don't move there's something in your face." and all of a sudden he moves towards me and wiped the corner of my mouth with his fingertips.
I froze. I felt cold chills creeping out of my every nerve endings. I had to shake my head just so I can go back to reality.
When I was about to talk again, he started pulling of his jacket.
"Are you cold?" he said placing his jacket on my shoulders.
"FVCK! WILL YOU STOP IT!" I said shouting my lungs out as I pounded the table hard with my fist. Sh1t it hurts!
The buzzing cafeteria came to a halt. Everyone was quite, they're all staring at us. Duke raised his eyebrows as I stood there feeling as if I'm going to explode.
You just did Venice!The crowd remained still, I was standing and Duke isn't even asking why I threw a fit. he's just sitting there waiting for me to shout again.
"I can't do this anymore." I said.
"I'm done." the last words barely came out as mere whispers. I can't take it anymore.
I hated being Duke's pseudo girlfriend. I hated not being able to eat lunch with Sierra and my brother. I hated not being able to talk to William. I hated the feeling of daggers everytime I walk pass Claire. I hated the whispering and gossips every time I stop by my locker.
I hated hearing how a slvt I am just because I'm staying with Duke. FVK this I hated everyone for being so plastic! Gahd! I hate them all!
But the worst part of walking away, the part I hated most, is that Duke didn't even stopped me when I walked away. Hell he didn't even protested. He didn't even speak! Hell he just made silence do the talking!
Sh1t! I even hate myself for expecting so much only to be damn disappointed in the end.
I walk pass the door and I can feel everybody's eyes on me. Watching my every step, they're all probably happy that Duke is no longer dating that nobody.
Come tomorrow, everyone, even those who acted nice to me, wouldn't even remember who Venice Lim was.
Raging thoughts are now filling up my brain when suddenly a voice, much angrier than mine stopped me from my tracks.
"Fvck Will why are you acting as if the world ended and it's all your fault!"I tiptoed and listened to Sierra shouting her voice out. William is sitting in a wooden chair and Sierra is standing in front of him.
"It's only Venice Will! Can't you at least be happy for her?" he didn't budge.
"Fvck! Wake up!! For once Will! Wake the hell up!! You're not just with Venice! Fvck! I'm sick of being invisible! I'm here!
All those times that you feel sad I was the one who's there for you! FVCK! Have Venice, in your whole years of being friends, have she gone out in the middle of the night just to buy you aspirin coz of your goddamn headache? HAS SHE??!FVCK WILL! Are you that dense?!" Then Sierra left the room tears streaming down her face. She didn't notice me standing by the door and eavesdropping in their conversation.
Everything she said hits home. I didn't even know she likes Will! What kind of friend I am?
Just a few minutes Will went out of the room too, he saw me standing there.
"I was..."He just stood there. Staring. His eyes filled with confusion.
"I didn't mean..."And the next thing I knew he pulled me closed to his face and kissed me.
Kissed me in the mouth!
And the weirdest thing happened.
I FVCKING KISSED BACK! 
