i have a friend, actually i can tell that she's my college closest friend *i dont know if she's still*
we've been together for 4 years now. from 1st to 4th year college.
she's very jolly and supportive to me. we're almost like sisters to each other.
but when she broke up with her boyfriend just recently, i noticed that she has changed. She oftentimes goes out, drinking with other people *usually boys* which she really dont know . And now, she's hanging out with our other blockmates which makes me feel like im being left behind.
then im starting not to talk to her. i always ignore her everytime we see each other. And she keeps asking me whats the problem? i always tell her there's no problem even its pretty obvious already.the reason why i always ignore her is because im practicing myself without her, i want to be independent. we've been for 4 years. i feel that im always in her shadow. i want to have a name of my own without any attachment to her name/popularity.
and the fact that i just want her to realize my worth.. opps! am i really worthy to her since she has lots of friends now?
this makes me sad everytime i think about it.
any advice guys?