"And the academic excellence for food and technology goes to... Mark."And there was silence.
"Mark?""not here, miss"Whenever I hear his name, it almost felt like I was being tortured. Sometimes, I can see his buddies looking at me, almost as though I know where he is.
Like duh, of course I don't know.
After the conversation at Sarah's house. I've never seen him. Or at least, after the weekends and the next 3 days of school. Even my legal studies teacher is looking for him. Wala naman akong masabi. Kahit ako din kasi di ko alam kung ano ng nangyari sa kanya. Although I know, na wala siyang sakit, gusto lang niyang mag cutting classes. Ewan ko ba dun, nahuli na siya minsan, pero sige lang at nag cutting pa rin. He never listens.
Just like he never listened to my reasons.
Pero habang tumatagal, para akong naghihintay sa kanya. Para akong biglang umasa na sana madaanan ko siya sa locker niya. I don't feel guilty for what I did, but I hate him for making me get used to him around. It was sort of unfair.
But then again I've been always unfair to him.
I wasn't that productive today, probably because I've been concerned for that
idi0t. Was it my fault? Is he taking it too hard for himself?
. . . -_-.
During my spare period, I was walking slowly as I watch the rain fall heavily in the ground. It's cold and I started shivering. Nevertheless, I loved the rain. I thought it was beautiful. I remember hating the rain. It always makes me sad because it reminds of me of my memories. Since yesterday it's been different, actually ever since that conversations I never had nightmares. But I can't actually based everything because someone confessed to me. It's not the first time I've received one. I'm pretty sure it wasn't because he is being serious either.
It might be that reason.
It has to be.
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After a week.Well, I guess It can't be help. So I went to his house after school. It must be his lucky day, I didn't have any after class. His parents said he's out. I wanted to wait, but... because I was never patient anyway, I was hoping I could see him in the old place.
See. I was right
.
He was curled up like a ball in the grasses. I don't know if he noticed me. He wasn't sleeping. He's just...
well, emo.
"I know why you look so sad, you got your head down in your hands and you crying out loud."He looked up in my direction. I don't know how to start a conversation, so I started singing and sway a bit while sitting down beside him.
"Everyday's always something, a man will go and take your pride your left with nothing. Tell you that he;ll stick around and you should love him. Tell me what's it gonna take you losin' your sanity"Oh, he smiled. Of course. He has to. I was the one singing.
Anyway, I smiled back.
"Okay now?""I'm impressed by the way.""Really?'"You were able to sing those lyrics out, but you never comprehend."Hmf.
"Still not going to school? You got an award.""I'm sick.""and yet, you're here.""And you too."I pouted. I have no idea what to say.
"What's wrong with me?""Huh?""Sabi mo, 'anyone but you.' What's wrong with me?""Mark--""Don't tell me it's because we're friends. I don't think that was it." "Ma--""Please don't tell me it's because of him.""Can you shut up? "I stood up.
"Don't guys have this rules about girls?""the what?""Mark. You can't date your best friend's girlfriend. Regardless of the fact that I am now his ex-girlfriend. You were here... with us. In this place, you've seen how much we love each other. When he left me, you saw how devastated I was. Since then, you've always been following me, trying to talk to me for some reason. I heard Mark...from him mismo. That you will take care of me - but not as your girlfriend. That's not a way to take care of me.""Hindi ko sinasabi 'to dahil naawa ako sayo. Hindi yun. Ano ba!""Then you won't just confess that fast. If you were serious, you wouldn't say it that fast.""You were being immature last time. You've totally misunderstood what I told you and went mad all of a sudden. I don't know what to say.""*sigh* and you think, I want to hear that? Especially from you?""Come on Elliz, why are you obsessed about that guy? Why can't you get over the past?""BECAUSE HE WILL COME BACK! Mark, HE WILL COME BACK!""See? nababaliw ka na ata. Hindi nga siya babalik eh! He won't care about you anymore. Not with the way you treated him back then."We must go through this again.
I walked away. For some reason, I just know that it's the end of the conversation. I took out something in my pocket and put it on my middle finger. He didn't chase me. I have no intentions of being caught up, anyway.
When I came home, I went straight to my room. I checked out a drawer that I haven't opened for a few months now. I took the phone out, turned it on and dialled a number.
"Liaw here. Yes?""Hey.""baby, you okay?"=/=
END OF HINDSIGHT.
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