Chapter One
Episode 5
Violet and I got even closer after the break up with my boyfriend Zack, I mean my ex boyfriend. I can say she’s a real friend to treasure for a lifetime. She has helped me recover from pain and heartaches although moving on takes time. And I know it’ll take me forever to completely forget Zack.
It’s been almost a month since I’ve got no news about him – I’d rather stick clueless. Though there were times that I’m missing him… I’m missing everything we do together… the places we’ve been together. But I guess, that’s life and I have to deal with it. I’m doing fine now even without his presence. I will get over him someday… and I know that…
Everything goes back to normal – I guess. I continue joining school organizations and make myself busy.
“Hi Janee!” Violet greeted me 4:00 pm Friday afternoon.
“Hey.” I responded timidly.
“Have you eaten lunch?” she asked as she puts her hand on my forehead.
“Vi, what exactly are you doing?”
“I’m just checking if you’re sick, you look really pale.” Violet commented.
“I-I don’t know. I feel very weak today…” Vi gave me a be-wildering face.
“Now you don’t give me that look, I know what’s running through your brain nerves. I feel sick today maybe because I’m tired, and it has nothing to do with my ex. I’m through with him.”
“Fine, but if you really are done with him why can’t you pronounce his name huh?”
“Why??? Do I have to say my ex’s name?”
“Well I guess so?
“Ooh… I don’t have time to talk about my ex. I’ll go home now. I need some rest.”
I waved Violet goodbye and left from school. And yes, maybe I’m still in denial of not being over Zack yet. But I’m sure that I don’t feel upset because of my ex… Okay… it’s Z-Z-Zack… now, I finally said it.
I lay down to bed earlier than usual. I’m very exhausted. It was the first time I felt all worn out. My vision started to go blurry. Everything seemed unsteady and I felt dizzy. I just closed my eyes thinking it would disappear but it didn’t. It seemed worse minute after minute. Oh crap, what is this kind of feeling? I think I’m gonna blow up!
The nastiest feeling in my entire life lasted for several days. And on the 3rd day, I decided to call on a physician.
“Ms. Ramirez, have you been active with your sex life?” The doctor asked.
I was stunned. What kind of question was that? “I beg your pardon?” I asked sheepishly.
“Don’t feel embarrassed, I’m a doctor remember? I’ve been asking this to all of my female patients who have the same cases as you do. I need to know this before you undergo medication.”
I sighed. “I-I-I do… before…” I answered hesitantly.
“And when was that before?” the doctor continued.
“I’m not sure… but it’s a month ago…” Okay I just don’t feel comfortable answering those kinds of Q’s.
“Very well, take this bottle with you and we’ll have a urine test.” The doctor handed me the sanitized bottle and directed me to the toilet.
After a few minutes of waiting for the result, the secretary called my name and politely advised me to go inside the clinic’s laboratory. I entered the room and saw the doctor holding a sheet of paper. It might be the test results.
“Have a sit.” she pleaded as she was trying to cool things down. Obviously, I looked nervous… really nervous.
“So what is it doc? What do the results say?” I asked.
“Sweetie, I am a bit worried about the tests. All of the possible causes resulted to negative except for one thing.”
“What is it? I really have to know.”
“I’m afraid you’re too young to be in this situation, but I’ll be honest enough to advise you to tell this to your parents. Janee… you had your pregnancy test positive. You’re 2 months pregnant as of today…”
The words echoed on my mind again and again. I looked paler than ever. Anxieties came running over and over. It’s impossible! I can’t be pregnant! This is not real! It’s only a nightmare!
I want to scream in pain but it hurts too much. Losing myself is more heartbreaking than losing Zack. How can I confess this with mom? Dad? Violet? What about my studies? My scholarship? My future? I felt like my dreams have collapsed all of a sudden. My whole world is crashing.
