MY DYING GIRLFRIEND.[END. •She DIED•]

[huntress_rhaine]

MY DYING GIRLFRIEND.[PT.3]

Why do i feel like I'll break my promise to myself? Why do I feel weak now when all i need is to be strong enough. Why do I want to be selfish now? Oh Nathaniel... Would it be right to be selfish?

He hugged her tight afraid of losing her, nabitawan ni Alexis ang dalang payong. No use din, basa na silang parehas. But they didn't care. That time, all they wanted was to feel each other.

Neither spoke for about 10minutes. Yes, 10minutes. For 10minutes ay ganun lang sila, magkayakap habang nababasa ng ulan. Para sa kanila, nasa sarili na nila silang mundo. It was all what they wanted, to be with each other.

His hug made Alexis strong. Nathaniel was Alexis' strength, when she's troubled or whenever she felt like giving up , all Nathaniel have to do is hug her and the pain would just go away.

Is it right to be selfish?

She heard herself again. No! She needed to be strong now, strong without her strenght! She can't be that selfish.

She had decided. She promised, she won't dare give Nathaniel greater pain.

Kumalas sya sa pagkakayap ni Nathaniel.

"Leave me alone, Nathan."

Gulong-gulo si Nathaniel, "But why Alexis? Ano ba nagawa kong pagkakamali? Tell me, I would do anything. Just don't throw me out of your life."

"But it's what I want Nathaniel! I want you out of my life!!!" she felt tear roll down her cheeks, buti na lang umuulan. The rain does really help. It covers her tears. She needed a strong mask. She doesn't want to give Nathaniel an idea na mahal pa rin nya to. All she wanted Nathaniel to think was she doesn't love him anymore.

"But why?"

"Because... Because, I found someone else!" there, she said it. The best excuse to make him think that she doesn't love him anymore. It was a lie. The biggest lie she had ever told. alam nyang ang pagsisinungaling ay masama. But in this case, she needed white lies.

Parang nanigas naman sa pagkakatayo si Nathaniel. There, he heard it. Clearly.

because I've found someone else..

The best reason for not loving him anymore. He must go now and accept his defeat. He promised to his self that he wouldn't bother Alexis' life anymore if he would heard from her words that she doesn't love him anymore and a good reason will be provided.

"Alexis..." yes, he would go and leave Alexis' alone but after he asked this last 2 question...

Alexis just stared on the ground... She was crying but she kept her voice from sobbing. Once he heard her sob, he'll know she's just making this things up and she doesn't want that to happen.

"Tell me something worth loving in this someone..."

"Why should I?"

"Because, if you don't give me a good reason to be loving this someone, I won't break up with you." Alam nyang may good reason si Alexis. He wanted to hear kung anong meron itong someone na ito na dahilan upang hindi na sya mahalin ni Alexis.

"You want a good reason?" Please Nathaniel, wag mo na akong pahirapan pa. Just leave now, don't ask questions anymore. Questions I can't bear to answer.

"y-yyes." nanginginig nyang sagot. She's gonna say it now. Parang nanghihina na sya, ilang segundo ay sasabihin na ni Alexis ang dahilan or should he say, ang sentensya nya?

I must be strong enough. Not selfish. I can do this.

She keeps on reminding herself. She took a deep breath at tumingin ng diretso sa mga mata ni Nathaniel, she gave him a smile. She needed to fake one. Kahit ang hirap ngumit ng umiiyak at nasasaktan, she forced her self to smile.

"Nathaniel. That someone I fond is someone who loves me so much."

"But I love you too..."

'please don't say such things..' nasabi ni Alexis sa isip nya. Ayaw na talagang tumigil ng mga luha nya, she can't bear this pain anymore. That must be the reason why God created rain so she can cry in front of him without him knowing it.

"Nathan, please let me speak."

Hindi na ito umimik. He told to his self na kahit gano kasakit ang mga sasabihin ni Alexis, he needed to accept it all. He needed to accept all the knife that will stab his heart.

"I love him and he loves me too. He makes me happy when he's around. He sees me as his 'all'. He never wants to see me cry. He made me feel that my life is worth living. He was always there for me when I need him and even I don't, he's still there."

"Is this someone, better than me?"

"Better."

"So. Goodbye." Nathaniel left leaving Alexis so crushed.

"You're so stupid. There's no someone. There's no one better than you. It was you,stupid! " she whispered to herself while crying.

"I love you, goodbye."



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[deynahdana]

AWWWWW. FIRST.

bakit ganiyan ka alexis? if you tell nathaniel the truth atleast you will be happy sa last day of your life. sometimes you need to be selfish, kahit masakit din sa kaniya pag nawala ka, atleast parehas kayong naging masaya.

sorry, nacacarried away ako eh. hahaha


ANG GANDA GANDA TALAGA.

[mysterybaby143]

ouch naman talaga oh! ang sakit naman nun!

alam mo alexis, mas nasasaktan siya sa mga ginagawa mo. kung mamamatay ka na, why dont you spend the rest of your life with him? kaysa naman maging malungkot kayong dalawa

[yhukie]

kung alam mo lang nathaniel ang katotohanan..
alexis.. Mas pinahihirapan mo ang sarili mo..
You need to tell it to him. 

[campuscrush_rea]

aw. grabe.
ang dramatic.
nakaka-iyak.

[huntress_rhaine]

MY DYING GIRLFRIEND[pt. 4]

Naglalakad sila noong hapon na iyon sa may tabing-dagat na magkahawak kamay.

"Alexis... Ano yang pasa sa kamay mo? napano yan?" napansin ni Nathaniel ang pasa sa kamay ni Alexis. Hinawakan nya ito pero nabigla sya ng agad tanggalin ito ni Alexis.

"It' nothing Nathaniel. Naipit lang yan." No. it was not. Its one of the symptoms. Madalas ng magsinungaling si Alexis kay Nathaniel, infact she's getting good at it. She really needed to be a bad liar.

"hmm.. Ganun ba, hindi ka kasi nag-iingat. Here, let me kiss it." inabot nya ulit ang kamay ni Alexis at dinampian ng halik ang pasa nito.

Alexis smiled, she's so lucky that she have someone like Nathaniel. Someone so caring and loving like him.
Pero... If she stay longer with Nathaniel, hindi nya na masiguro if Nathaniel deserves someone like her...

someone dying.

"Oh... What's with the sad face, princess?"

"uh.. Nothing."

"C'mon. Hiding something from me? Di ba dapat wala tayong secret-secrets?"

"Nathaniel... What if mamamatay na ako?"

Nabigla si Nathaniel sa tanong ng girlfriend nya. "Alexis? What's with that question? You're scaring me."

"I really shouldn't be telling it to him." sinabi ni Alexis sa sarili nya.

She stop walking and faced him and placed the best fake smile she can and said. "Just kidding."

She was shocked when Nathaniel pulled her close to him and hugged her tightly, "Wag na wag kang magbibiro ng ganon Alexis. Pinakaba mo ako dun. Kala ko talaga may meaning yung tanong mong yun kasi nitong mga nakaraang araw napapansin ko, madalas kang nagiging clumsy, mahina, matamlayin. I thought your sick or something. I was glad that your question was just a joke."

'So he noticed those symptoms.' malungkot na pahayag ni Alexis sa sarili.

"Nah.. I'm just really clumsy." this time she didn't pull off a smile just a cheery tone because Nathaniel wouldn't see her face for it was buried in his chest.

The moment Alexis asked that questioned, natakot si Nathaniel kasi akala nya totoo so when Alexis said that it was just a joke, he felt relieve somehow. STILL, he felt something wrong and it's giving him goosebumps.

"Yah. you're clumsy. That's why I needed to be at your side forever because who would take care of you kung wala ako?"

"Kaw talaga. Oh sya tama na ang hug, mamatay na ako nyan, mauubusan ako ng hangin." pero imbis na pakawalan nya ito sa yakap nya, lalo pang hinigpitan ni Nathaniel.

"1 more minute, my princess."

"Aba. Nageextend ka pa ha. Baka mamatay na ako nan."

"Please stop telling that your gonna die!"

"I'm just kidding ok? Wag mo naman masyadong seryosohin mga sinasabi ko."

"I'm just afraid ok? I don't wanna lose you. You are my life."

"Mala-edward cullen naman ang padale mo eh. Ano pang isusunod mong line, 'your my brand of heroine'?"

Pero hindi kumagat sa biro ni Alexis si Nathaniel.

"Yes you are. You are everything to me. If I lose you, I don't know how I'll manage to live."


"Nagigising na ba sya?"

"Yes. She's gaining her consciousness."

"Alexis..."

That voice. It was familiar to her, it was the sweetest voice she had ever heard in her whole life. The voice that never would she fail to forget. The voice that calms and soothes her always. The voice that held the words, "i love you" to her a million times.


The voice that once said, 'goodbye' to her.


The voice of that person in her dream just before she's gaining back her consciousness...


The voice of the most important guy in his life....

"Nathaniel..."

Is she still dreaming? She asked herself. Where is she? Why is Nathaniel here? Ang alam nya, ang gabing yun na ang huli nilang pagkikita, they've said their goodbyes already. Pero, why is Nathaniel here calling her name???

Where is she? She can't remember a thing after that night.



Is she in heaven???


But why is Nathaniel with her in heaven?


Ambait naman ni Lord, binigyan sya ng Nathaniel sa heaven.

She smiled at the thought. Before,she's scared in getting to either heaven or hell without Nathaniel but now, all her fears are gone because her Nathaniel is here in front of her. With her in her heaven.



Nasa heaven na nga ba sya?


"Alexis... my princess..." tinawag ulit sya ni Nathaniel sa nag-aalalang boses.


"kung nasa heaven na kami, he's supposed to be happy di ba? Kasi magkasama kami? But why is he calling my name in a worried tone?" nagtatakang tanong ni Alexis sa sarili niya.

"Wag kang mag-alala, Nathaniel, the doctor said that she'll be fully awake after some more minutes."

Nabigla at nagtaka si Alexis. If she was in heaven, why is her father with them?


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haha. ang adik mag-update. :]]
Dito na lang ako babawi, hindi ako makapag-update sa isa kong story ihh kasi ang hirap naman nun, may color-coding. Mas madaling magupdate dito kasi walang color. nyahaha. :]


Salamat ulit sa mga nagsupport. yay ko ulit kayo. :]

Salamat ulit sa silent readers. kung meron. haha. sana, sana. :]

Ingats! Bawal magkasakit. ;]

[yhukie]

first..

read mode..

edit:

Grabe ang sweet ni Nathaniel! Nasa hospital na sila.. nu kaya nangyari??

[mysterybaby143]

hmmm, alam na ba ni nathaniel? tsk, or, alam niya lang na nasa ospital si alexis pero hindi niya alam na grabe sakit niya?

[deynahdana]

awww. parang feeling ko ano. ano.
ohmygod. ang sweet naman ni nathaniel nung kiniss iyong pasa, i remembered something. something that is not worth knowing.

hahahaha. nice update! keep it up!

[keeshiel]

haaay... nakakaiyak naman ang mga update  


sana may update uli. hehe. keep up the good work sis. ang ganda talaga! 

[Ayra.]

Ay, ano yun? Nakakaconfuse yung last part sa PT 4. xD
Ang ganda ng story mo. Dito lang ako palagi. Comment comment kahit walang reply.

[prettychq18]

aw. new reader. hehe.. silent reader dapat eh.
kaya lang di ko mapigil. anlungkot naman kasi nadadala ako. hehe.. nakakaiyak. anu ba yun. waaaah. nauutal naman ako. wahahaha..

kaycee, btw. 

[obliviousdarkangel]

oowmff....mare!
panalo tlga tong storya mo.
grbe..gus2 ko na maiyak ha..
whew..grbe.
hahaha.....

i love it na..
siguro nasa hospital lang sila sa last chap.
waaaah
grbe.
nakakaiyak..
haha
anyway.
gogogog!!

next chappie


too bad di ke pde magreply..
grabe na toooo

waaaaaa

[eliryx03]

[face=papyrus]      wieee... ka2iyak aman puh 2., amp., continue2... hehehe![/face]

[huntress_rhaine]

MY DYING GIRLFRIEND.[pt.5]

What if you were making a tower through cubes and malapit mo ng matapos ang tower na yun, last cube na lang when suddenly, natumba ang mga cubes ng tower mo... Would you still continue and try building the tower cubes again or just give up because your afraid that when you try again, your efforts would just be wasted?


January 1, 2009. 12:00am.

"HAPPY 3rd ANNIVERSARY!!" kapwa nila sinabi sa isa't isa and kissed each other while the fireworks background their sweet moment.

"Why am I hearing that your heart says, 'you love me so much?" nakangiting sabi ni Nathaniel after the kiss.

"Hoy. ang korni mo ha. Asa ka pang marinig mo yung sinasabi ng heart ko. Atsaka hindi naman nagsasalita ang puso." natatawang sabi ni Alexis.

Hinawakan ni Nathaniel ang magkabilang pisngi ni Alexis and looked deeply in her eyes, "Bakit? Mali ba? Hindi ba yun ang sinasabi ng heart mo?"

"hmmm..." nagkukunwaring pagiisip ni Alexis. Actually, hindi na kelangan pang pagisipan yun ni Alexis kasi she would never deny the love she have for this guy in front of her.

"Alexis naman..."

Natatawa na si Alexis, alam nyang pag nagbibiro sya na pinagiisipan nya kung mahal nya si Nathaniel or hindi ay kinakabahan ng todo todo si Nathaniel, parang matataeng ewan ang itsura.

"haha. Of course tama ang narinig mo sa puso ko kaso..."

"Kaso?"

"Relax ka lang.. natatae na yang mukha mo eh."

"Naman kasi Alexis, pinakakaba mo ako eh. Kaso ano kasi?"

"Kaso..." nagpapabitin effect pa talaga si Alexis.

"Alexis Rhaine Espinosa! Aatakihin na ako sa iyo, wag mo akong bitinin!"

"hahahah. ihh.. Kaso, Mr. Nathaniel Bryan Del Rio. Ambingi mo, bakit si heart ko lang narinig mo? Hindi mo ba narinig na sinabi ng lungs ko na 'I can't live without you'?"

Tumaas ang kilay ni Nathaniel. Natatawa pa rin si Alexis.

"Hindi mo rin narinig na sinabi ng liver ko na 'you are my forever' and even my small and big intestine ay hindi mo narinig na sinabing, 'what would be my sense in this world without you by my side'?"

Pinisil ni Nathaniel ang magkabilang pisngi ni Alexis, "Ang KYUT KYUT mo talaga." pang-gigil ni Nathaniel.

"Ouch. Sakit nun ah." nakapout pang sabi ni Alexis.

"Korni ko pala ha. Eh mas korni ka pa sa akin eh."

"Syempre, I love you eh sabi ng lahat ng organs ko."

Then nagkiss ulit sila.


They part ways at around 6am, pero they didn't do anything immoral. Nathaniel isn't what you call a 'virgin' anymore. Yes, may nakasex na syang ibang girls pero that was all for fun. And now, kahit solong-solo nya si Alexis, he wouldn't do anything indecent to Alexis. Alexis was the only girl she learned to respect because he loves her. He'll wait till their MARRIED. He believes that Alexis is the girl he would gladly be with in front of the altar someday.


When Alexis reached home, natulog na sya after taking a shower.

7pm

masyadong napahaba ang tulog ni Alexis. She really felt tired, hindi nya alam kung bakit. These days, she always felt tired, pero she doesn't know why.

She felt hot too. Hinipo nya ang noo nya.

"Oh. I have a fever."

Tumayo sya from her bed para kumuha ng gamot, she was walking out of her room when she felt abdominal pain... Bigla biglang sumakit ang dibdib nya, she ignored it and make her way to her mom's room para mag-ask ng medecine.

"Oh, Alexis anak, buti gising ka na. Ang haba ng tulog mo ah." nakangiting bati ng kanyang ina ng pumasok sya. She smiled at her mother pero biglang sumakit ng sobra-sobra and everything was turning to a blurr...

"Alexis! Alexis!"

she heard her mom shouting then after that, everything went black.

The next day...

When she woke up, "Mom?"

"I'm glad your awake, dear."

"Ma, anong nangyari?" She can't remember anything that had happened that night.

"Nothing anak..."

"No... Tell her, Suzzane, she need to know it. She has the right to know." it was her dad. Naguguluhan si Alexis sa mga magulang nya, what are they talking about?

"Pero, Carl..." her mom is now crying.

"Ma, pa, what's going on?"

She was ignored, "Suzanne, sabihin mo na ngayon pa lang... kelan mo pa sasabihin? kung kelan malala na sya? It would just make things worser. She needed to know it hanggat maaga pa. Malalama't malalaman nya din naman yon." Now, it was her father crying, gulong-gulo na sya. Why are her parents crying?

"I need to go, Suzanne. Remember, you need to tell her." her father went out of her room.

It was just her and her crying mother now.

"Ma, tell me. What's going on?"

Her mother looked at her and held her hand, "Anak, wag kang mabibigla ha?"

"Mabibigla?"


"Alexis... you..."


"I?"

"you have...."

"I have what ma? Ma naman, nambibitin ehh." Sabi ni Alexis sa pabirong tono para naman mabago ang atmosphere, medyo kinakabahan na din siya.


Lalong lumakas ang iyak ng kanyang mommy dahil sa pagbibiro nya, "Alexis, you have LEUKEMIA!"


Parang dinaganan sya ng napakabigat na bagay. It was such a revelation! Parang tumigil ang isip nya, ang buong sistema nya pati na rin ang mundo. Natulala lang si Alexis, ayaw magfunction ng kahit ano sa sistema nya sa narinig na balita.


Yesterday... I was the happiest woman... I was
near at the peak of my happiness then suddenly, here I am, falling down at the core of depression. Why must this happen? Must there really be a balance? Why can't it be just pure happiness? Why must there be suffering like this?!"

The first thing in her system that functioned was her tears, it started rolling down in her cheeks.

"Why ma?!! Why me?! Bakit?! Tell me that it was just a big LIE"

"I wish I can..."

"Who told you that ma? Who told you that I have leukemia? The doctor?! The hell for him! He's just a human! Tao lang sya! How dare him tell na may leukemia ako?! He is not God to know it! I don't believe na I have leukemia! Wala akong leukemia ma. I'm just perfectly fine! That doctor is just making a big lie to us!" naghyhysteria na si Alexis. She can't accept the fact that she has cancer...


That she is--dying.


Her mom just hugged her tightly.

"Sana nga kasinungalingan na lang ang lahat anak..."

Hindi na nagsalita si Alexis, all she did was cry.



November 28, 2009.

"Nathaniel?! What are you doing here?! Di ba I told you to get out of my life?! Why are you here?!"
Nang magbalik na ng tuluyan si Alexis sa consciousness nya saka nya lang narealize na she's not dead yet. She's not yet in heaven. She was just in this freakin hospital.

Kung nung medyo unconscious pa sya at akala nyang nasa heaven sya ay tuwang-tuwa sya na nandon si Nathaniel with her, eh ngayon ay hindi. She's angry at nobody, she's just angry kasi andito si Nathaniel sa hospital. And maybe, Nathaniel knew her condition already.


"Yes, you told me to get out of your life. I'm about to do that when I learned that all of it was just a lie."


Nakatungo lang si Nathaniel nung sinasabi niya iyon and hindi makita ni Alexis ang expression nito.


"...And you know, lying is bad. It's a sin, so as a punishment, you can't do nothing but to bear with me with all of your life whether you like it or not."



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