Nagkaroon na ba kayo ng doubts sa faith nyo?

[littlemissgleek]

Oo. Naging suicidal pa nga ako noon eh.   
At matindi-tinding doubt yung nagawa ko nun.  Gabi-gabing umiiyak at nagwawala.  Araw-araw gustong-gusto kong kunin yung kutsilyo sa kusina at maglaslas. Buti na lang duwag ako.  Kasi kung hindi ako duwag, matagal na akong dedo.

[ein]

Oo naman. At sa tingin ko ang pagda-doubt kay God noon ang mas nakapagtibay ng faith ko sa kanya.

Iniisip ko kase noon na parang ang daming mali sa Bible, na dahil dun nag-lead den yun sa pagka-doubt ko kay God. Tas hanggang sa na-realize ko na ang tunay na faith kay God ay hindi lamang nakikita sa scriptures at sa mga bagay na sinabi lamang sayo ng ibang tao. Na makikita mo yun sa sarili mo. Mahirap po ipaliwanag. 

[-Blue Carbuncle-]

I have, and that doubtness isn't just as simple as everyone think. It might be because I was exposed to the Devil, when my religion class started discussing about it. We have studied about Satan, and I get interested at it and start researching everything about it. Even though it's interesting because it's creepy, I'm getting confused. I LOVE GOD, period. But now what?

I know that if I don't follow God I will be sent to Hell or something like that, and I DESPERATELY never want that to happen. I joined the Campus Ministry of our school because of confusion as a member, and there we were taught about God's love. I was once again reunited with God, and now my faith was stronger to Him. I believe it'll be forever my regret that I exposed myself to the Devil, but I DID NOT WORSHIP IT. That's what you guys should know.

I hope what I aid didn't affect you guys from me, I was never a bad person, and I never did bad things. It's just my faith that confused me, but now everything was fine.