Naglalaslas because of problems

[cheese20]

dati nag-attempt na din ako na gawin yan because of love. pero nag-isip ako ng more than ten times and inisip ko yun mga posibleng mangyari kapag tinuloy ko. hindi talaga maganda ang mangyayari kapag tinuloy ko kasi ipnapakita ko na talo talaga ako.

[pnay_hotchick21]

i have friends who cut themselves. but i know why they like it...its not for attention, not for fun but definitely to ease the pain. its more of the fact that life hurt them and thats uncontrollable but the pain -they make- makes them feel like they control the situation.

[chianecha]

ako dati, minsan gus2 ko talagang maglaslas dahil sa love/family/school problemspero sabi ko sa sarili ko...

"ayokong mamatay na nasasaktan"

kaya pinipigilan ko nalang huminga w/c eventually didn't work...

kaya iniiyak ko nalang as in hagulgol tpos kinakausap ko c god...

gumagaan yung feelings ko 

[jocriscastillo]

hmmn.never ko pang na try mag laslas..
2 or 3 ata sa mga friend ko nung high skul nag
lalas las,diff.reasons nla abt.sa mga problems nlah..

[rolune.hysteria]

never! i think that's a little bit insane because you'll only hurt yourself. and, if other people will find out about it, you'll only make your reputation nasty...

[lemonade_xv]

meron din akong kilalang naglalaslas pero feeling ko mga papansin lang sila at pasikat.

[-rAmDoRe-]

when i read some of the comments, i feel guilty about myself... i did slash my fist once... hahaha.. when i remember, i just laugh at it.. up to now, may peklat pa din... hehehe... haayyy.. that point of mylife, i don't know what to do.. so, i just want to end up my life.. so many problems, that i thought i can't survive.. but good thing, i get ovet to it..

i think, we should not judge the people who did it (not because im one of them), they have their own reasons why they thought of doing it to themselves... besides, we don't know what they feel and think. how hard they carry their problem.. so, let's just respect what they did.. and for sure, they forgive their selves on doing it. So, let's forgive them and move on...

[meh mine]

Yeah, I didn't just tried to do it, I did it...

The main reason why I did that was because of my classmates. Naka-away ko sila because of some misunderstandings which hanggang ngayon, di ko pa rin naiintindihan kung bakit nangyari yun.

Anyway, I did that because they were talking behind my back. They were blabbering negative stuff about me that's totally not true! What was I to do? I just kept ignoring them and pretended nothing happened, pretended I've heard nothing.

Then it comes to the point na sawang-sawa na akong marinig ang mga kinakalat nilang balita. I was trying to find a reason why they would do that to me. Naging mabait naman ako sa kanila eh...In fact, I consider them before my very close friends, why would they do that to me? bakit nila sinusuklian ang mga ginawa kong sakripisyo bilang isang kaibigan para lang sa kanila?

I was full of the things they were talking about me. Sawang-sawa na talaga ako. I try to find comfort from my friends but it wasn't enough. I thought of finding comfort from my family pero isa na rin sila sa dahilan kung bakit nagawa ko yun. My mother and my father were fighting because of a third-party. And didn't it occur to them that the children are the one's who's suffering their mistakes? I was seeking comfort but I think no one could help me.

Then the thought of cutting my wrist came into my mind. I don't know why it happened, something just tells me na "gawin mo na lang!" and hindi ko talaga naiintindihan. When I did it, I wasn't scared. I was just there alone in my room, trying to find comfort by cutting  my own skin. At first, I thought, hindi ko kaya, wag ko 'tong gawin dahil mas lalo pang lalala ang problema but I didn't let it hinder me from doing it.

The next day, alalang alala ang mga best friends ko. They were wondering what happened to me. I just showed them a smile and pretended nothing happened but they can still see I was totally hurt inside. While I was talking to some of my classmates, our teacher in Algebra came and nakisama sa kwento then they noticed, the cuts on my arms. My teacher was so concerned and all he ever said was, "Hindi tama ang paglalaslas, every problem has a solution. Wag ka lang mawalan nang pag-asa, darating ang solusyon."

I didn't thought he was going to tell our Prefect of Discipline. Akala ko biro-biro lang nila yun. Then after our lunch time, pinatawag ako nang taga-prefect. Then I went downstairs, and convinced myself to tell our prefect-of-discipline everything what's inside my mind and my heart.

So there I was, telling her what was in my thoughts, giving her honest answers of what I'm feeling. Napaiyak pa nga ako habang kinakausap niya ako because I just couldn't bear the fact that they're actually doing it to me wherein, wala naman akong masamang ginawa sa kanila...

Pinatawag ang dalawang kaklase ko nang prefect at kinausap kaming tatlo. Nag-sorry sila at nagka-reconcile kami.

Then I realized, tama yung sinabi nang teacher namin sa Algebra. Lahat namang talaga nang problema, may solusyon, wag lang daw mawalan nang pag-asa. Doing that thing, drew me away from God and now I've realized I was totally wrong...

Kaya heto ako ngayon, nagbabagong buhay! 

So as to those Candy Girls who underwent the same thing that happened to me, isa lang naman ang sabihin ko sa inyo. Doing that stuff, will only make things worse and will back you off from God. Instead, just hold on to him and I'm sure he'll never let his child be in pain...

[theriotress2626]

weird nga eh... may pinost kasi yung guy crush ng bayan sa friendster na emo girls are hot. eto namang airheads, kelangan daw maglaslas para masabing emo and makadate si mr. crush ng bayan. ewan ko ba sa mga to!

[ikuta_toma920]

Ako, kahit gusto ko. Never ko pa ginawa toh. Think positive! 

[asehj]

ako naglalaslas before...
mixed emotions,.. hate, emptiness, depressed...
ewan...
ganun lang cguro ung iba... kagaya ko...

para sakin.. diyan ko pinapalabas ang galit ko (through the cuts)
pero no effect siya... ganun parin... problemado pa rin...
tpos the scars would just remind you about your problems..

nanghinayang nga ako... dahil kitang kita ang apat na linya dahil xa laslas...

sa mga may planong mag laslas... huwag niyong ituloy... kasi wala siyang maitutulong xa mga problema niyo... nakakadagdag pa nga minsan..

[xenyc.]

when i read some of the comments, i feel guilty about myself... i did slash my fist once... hahaha.. when i remember, i just laugh at it.. up to now, may peklat pa din... hehehe... haayyy.. that point of mylife, i don't know what to do.. so, i just want to end up my life.. so many problems, that i thought i can't survive.. but good thing, i get ovet to it..

i think, we should not judge the people who did it (not because im one of them), they have their own reasons why they thought of doing it to themselves... besides, we don't know what they feel and think. how hard they carry their problem.. so, let's just respect what they did.. and for sure, they forgive their selves on doing it. So, let's forgive them and move on...

i do agree with you!~ don't be too judgemental kasi hindi niyo naman alam kung anong nararamdaman namin eh on how we handled that certain thing,mahirap yung situation na un...

[tr.ix.ia]

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

waww emo! haha. v(^_^)v
never tried it. not planning to. xD
yeaa. just thinkpositive!

[aieyqkca]

i knew a few people. now many of us may think "what's the use of doing it?" or "it's insanity! that's nonsense!" but analyzing the situation further, we may ask what's the real reason behind it.

there could be lots, family issues, friendship issues, love life, school, job, or the feeling that he/she is helpless and alone. & that's when they reach their tipping point and think that it's a "solution" to what their problems are, which most of us will say definitely no.

it's easy to put the blame on the person who did the act but i THINK that they wouldn't be doing it if they felt they have someone to turn to or if someone actually gave them more encouragement.

i haven't done it but looking at it as a psychology major, these people could use someone who will be there to listen and support them more than criticize them. but of course we can't really dictate them what or what not to do, but what we can do as their "friends" is to help them not reach that tipping point.

[xenyc.]

i knew a few people. now many of us may think "what's the use of doing it?" or "it's insanity! that's nonsense!" but analyzing the situation further, we may ask what's the real reason behind it.

there could be lots, family issues, friendship issues, love life, school, job, or the feeling that he/she is helpless and alone. & that's when they reach their tipping point and think that it's a "solution" to what their problems are, which most of us will say definitely no.

it's easy to put the blame on the person who did the act but i THINK that they wouldn't be doing it if they felt they have someone to turn to or if someone actually gave them more encouragement.

i haven't done it but looking at it as a psychology major, these people could use someone who will be there to listen and support them more than criticize them. but of course we can't really dictate them what or what not to do, but what we can do as their "friends" is to help them not reach that tipping point.

i love your explanation sis!~ and thanks!