Dear God,
I'm very much stressed because of my lola. She talks of things that really hurt the people around her. I know that she's getting old and she's been wanting more attention from us. I just want to you to please let her realizze that not at all times that people would try to understand her worsening attitude and behavior. She likes to insult other people after talking to them. I always try ti be patient about it, but I know I should not tolerate what she has been doing that's why I honestly explained it to my mom, which was a good idea because my mom made me realized also my lola's part. As her apo, I only want what's best for her. I didn't want to offend her or disrepect her, but I feel I'm not getting any out of my effort for her. I respect and obey her but she's not reciprocating, thus making me feel angry and stressed. I know I'm not her favorite apo, but believe me God I tried and I'm trying to do my best to live a normal life with her inside our house inspite of all the insults and not so good comments my sister, my father, and I get from her.
Dear God, I want peace in our family. She's kind, very kind, but she's acting on it. She's fooling people. She's kind to us, the next thing we know she's bombarding us with many bad criticisms. She only wanted to talk about herself, she doesn't listen to us. I know it's part of her aging process which again I try to understand. I wanted her to respect me and my family. I want her to be kind to us. We didn't do anything to her that would trigger her attitude towards us. My mom just told me that she really talks like that , that she seldom thinks of what she says even though sometimes it's illogical.
Dear God, forgive me for I have sinned. Please forgive whatever things I have done to her.
Please guide me and help me make it through. It gets worse everyday, and I'm feeliing sick. I don't know who to turn to. She would be staying here with us up to day my cousin would arrive from states. I just wish he would come home so soon to get my lola from us. Lola doesn't know but to scold us for no apparent reason. She nags just about anything which I hate the most.
God, give me the strength , it's been eating my whole immune system.
<3 Chic