Tedeng! Haha. Sorry po late update na and I know it’s already 8-ish. Paano ba naman, nadala ako sa mall with my friends. Teehee! >_< So whatever, here we go!
Btw girls, may song nanaman na iplaplay ditto. Ang title is Te querro tanto tanto by RBD. Hanapin niyo nalang sa list ayt?
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Hindi ko ineexpect na yun yung maririnig ko. Of course, I’m standing in front of my childhood sweetheart and nevertheless my so called “soon-to-be-boyfriend”(sana) and the first guy who brought me to a meet your family scenery just said that “forever and ever babe” was just a big crap in his life. Hell! Who would expect that?
I want to slap him and pour him harsh words and punches was the thought in my mind but if you ask what’s in my heart? All it says is
I hope this is a nightmare I’m living and someday, he will take those words all back. I can’t do anything nor move a toe, ang alam ko lang eh I’m here, standing in front of the guy I love with watery eyes.
Dahil wala na akong magawa at alam kong hinihintay ako ni Jamir sa parking lot so dumeretsyo ako dun. Hindi ako naiyak sa narinig ko pero alam kong deep inside eh nasasaktan ako at mahirap tanggapin yung mga narinig ko. Nung palapit ako ng palapit sa car ni Jamir eh alam kong iba yung tingin niya, yan pa na kabisado na ako niyan.
Hey, what’s with that face?Face? What face?Tha-Bago pa man siya maka pagsalita at matanong ang totoong nangyari eh nagring yung phone ko. Nakita ko na si Mitch yun. Wait! Si Mitch? Bakit kaya siya napatawag na alam kong ayaw niyang magpadistorbo. Bago pa man umabot na maging busy tone eh sinagot ko na.
Hey! Napatawag ka?We have to go somewhere Jara. ASAP!Nanginginig yung boses ni Mitch which naka feel agad ako ng tension at alam kong may nangyari na masama. Ewan ko kung kanino basta all I know is this won’t be good.
What’s with the shaky tone Mitch? Calm down! Tell me what’s going on?Ch-chl-chloe’s…. mom died.Nagulat ako sa narinig ko. I mean who wouldn’t be especially close kami sa family ni Chloe and last thing we heard is healthy naman ang mom niya and nothing happened critical I guess. But hey, people keeps secrets like me naman dba? So hindi naming masisi si Chloe.
Sabi ni Mitch eh magkita daw kami dun sa funeral house na pero since nakita namin siya sa sa Gate 1 sinabay na namin siya ni Jamir. She told us na nainform naraw niya lahat sa barkada at si Karl raw eh pinuntahan si Diane and Zen. So basically magkikita-kita na lang kami dun.
Nung pagdating naming sa funeral house eh hinug agad kami ni Chloe na umiiyak(mas nauna silang dumating kesa kila Karl) at namumugto na yung mga mata. Tumingin siya sa amin ni Mitch at magsasalita sana pero inunahan ko siya.
If your gonna say sorry no need. We understand why you kept it so cry no more girl! We’re here.Syempre nagging madrama yung pakikiramay namin kay Chloe at naiyak rin kaming dalawa ni Mitch. Dun lang namin na realize na ang dami na pala naming namiss na bonding sessions at epal moments. We realized na iba pala talaga yung feeling pagnakasama mo uli yung girl friends mo. Masaya na ewan.
Nung dumating sila Diane eh dumeretsyo sila kay Chloe and once more nakita ko si Zen na para bang walang nangyari earlier between us, wait! There was no “us” nga pala dahil it was all a joke. I decided na magpahangin muna sa labas para naman magka-moment sila with Chloe and the family.
Nung nasa labas ako napansin ko na nandun pala si Jamir na kanina ko pa hinahanap. Nilapitan ko siya at tinabihan. Nagsmile lang naman siya sa akin at bumalik yung tingin niya sa clouds. Napansin ko lang na everytime tahimik siya eh nakatingin lang siya sa clouds.
So you gonna tell me what’s with the face?It was nothing really. I’m all good now. I promise!Nagraise ako ng right hand ko at yun bang nagpromise na gesture. Napangiti naman siya sa akin pero bumalik lang rin ang tingin niya sa clouds. Hindi ko matanggal yung tingin ko sa kanya. Sa kanya na maputi yung kutis at mahaba ang eye lashes with matching hazel eyes and red lips. How can this guy be anymore real when his next to the word perfect?
Nafeel ko na naiiyak nanaman ako. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero I feel na I’m a total loser at this very moment. Loser dahil I didn’t had the guts to tell my friends the truth before my love life crashed. Loser cause I can’t give my love to the person next to me today. Loser dahil…. I can’t get a grip of my life.
A few more minutes and boom! I cried like a child and nagulat pa nga si Jamir. Napatingin siya kaagad sa akin at hinawakan ang arms ko and he brushed my back, yun bang pinapatahan ako. Continue parin ako sa pagiyak pero napatigil din ako.
Bakit ganun? B-bakit di ki-ki-kita matutunang ma-mahalin? B-ba-bak-bakit di nalang ikaw yung childhood friend ko na minahal ko at na-na-nanligaw sa akin ngayon? Bakit kailangan ikaw yung maging dakilang friend na nandyan parati para sa akin? Bakit hindi ka pwede maging laman ng puso ko? B-ba-bakit Jamir?Tiningnan niya yung mga mata kong umuulan ng luha at bigla na lang niya akong niyakap ng sobrang higpit. I didn’t know what to do but my arms wanted to hug him back so I did. Ngayon lang ako naka feel ng super lungkot at super saya in the same time. Hindi ko alam kung tama ba pero I’m sure na si Jami rang nasa utak ko at this very moment…. and not Zen.
All I know is if I was that guy I wouldn’t have you in my arms as this very moment and I wouldn’t have the guts to show you how much I love you….*CHORUS OF SONG only PLAYS HERE
Te quiero tanto, tanto, tanto, tanto, tanto cada día un poco más..ah ah. Te quiero tanto, tanto, tanto, tanto, tanto para mí no hay nada igual...no lo hay. Te quiero tanto, tanto, tanto, tanto amor que ya no puedo más ya no puedo más.As he said those words I felt weak but at the same time happy. He really has his own ways to make me feel loved and cared. He has his own ways of being sweet but doesn’t over do’s it. I’ve been sensitized and next thing I know…
we kissed.****
Its Saturday today and nagdecide kami ni Jamir na pumunta somewhere. Uuhm. Guess what? He asked if he could court me and I agreed. Wala namang masama dun dba? We’re both single and sa nakikita ko hindi rin naman niya mahirap mahalin. Sabi pa niya eh tutulungan niya akong maka move on since we both see na wala ng chance na maging kami ni Zen or it goes that way.
Nandito kami sa tapat ng Breeze Island Beach pero di pa kami pumapasok. Nandito pa kami sa auto ni Jamir. May iiexplain raw muna siyang things sa akin. Naglabas siya ng isang bottle at paper at inabot niya sa akin.
Here! I want you to write each and every sad emotion you had. Pain, sadness and whatsoever. Just write them down here okay?But why?Remembered when I told you that we have to let go of stuffs so we can keep the better memories than the bitter ones? Now, we're gonna do it! So I did what he said. Tama naman siya eh, make space for the better memories and for the people who never let you down even for a moment. While writing it eh nagsusulat rin siya ng kanya. Afterwards eh binigay ko na sakanya at nilagay niya dun sa bottle.
Next is we have to take a picture para naman naka note na sa atin yun. We did took a pic. Nagdala kasi siya ng polaroid na cam. Don't ask me where he bought it or where he got it cause I don't also have an idea basta sabi niya sa Tita raw niya. Puro nalang ba talaga tita? Whatever.
Bumaba na kami ng car tapos pumunta sa may shore at nilagay yung bottle sa water. Tiningnan namin ito habang inaalon ng waves. Malakas kasi ang waves ngayon dahil sa tropical weather and other stuffs. Habang tinitingnan yung bottle eh hinawakan niya yung kamay ko which I felt happy.
What if somebody sees the bottle and kunin niya?His lucky.Lucky? Bakit naman?His lucky cause he saw the face of the girl I treasure here.. in my heart!Pagkatapos namin dun sa beach eh pumunta kami dun sa malapit na palce, Square Town. Ang Square Town eh parang Libis pero mas malaki ng konti at hindi po siya bars kundi may park, cotton candies, playground and other stuffs na pang kids at teens except bars. Hehe.
Nagdecide kami na kumain muna at saka na magikot-ikot sa stores kasi may bibilhin ako. Pumasok kami sa Jap Resto dahil dun gusto ni Jamir, di naman ako umalma kasi gusto ko siya naman ang masunod ngayon. Lagi nalang niya akong pinagbibigyan at ayaw ko naman na sabihin ng ibang tao at mafeel niya na it's all bout me because it's not.
It's about us!So what do we do next?Yan yung first question ko nung paglabas namin ng resto. Nagmake face siya na nagiisip raw at natawa ako sa face niyang yun kaya I slapped him ng pabiro at sabay kami tumawa.
Nung nagpassby kami sa playground eh napatigil kami sa paglalakad, tumigil kasi bigla si Jamir at binitawan yung kamay ko. Napatingin ako sa kanya na para bang bata na may malaking tanong. Tiningnan ko kung saan nakatingin yung mata niya at nakita ko na may nakatayo pala sa harap namin.
Lucas?****
Who is Lucas? FIND IT OUT IN THE NEXT CHAP! ^_^
