I'm sorry I couldn't tell you this straight. I've been a very bad girl lately. I just want you to know that I've been lying to you all along. Yes, I did sleepover at a friend's house but the truth is, I went out partying, drinking and smoking with a couple of friends. i know you wouldn't approve of this behavior, kaya nga nag rebel ako because I know for a fact na kahit sasabihin ko sa inyo, or if I ask permission from you guys, you would never approve.
You know that I've been a good girl at school. I give you good grades. I follow your strict curfew naman. I follow all of your rules. But I'm 19 now ma, and I'm a college senior. Shoudln't I be enjoying life as it is before I enter the reality after graduation? I want to experience the best simple things in life with other people, not after I graduate because surely I'd be looking for work then. I want you to know that I am capable of making my own choices - independently.
Yes, only child ako. Devout religious christians kayo, you brought me up this way. But until when will I be held captive under your arms? This shell that has been trapping me for too long wants to crack already, and I just want to break free. I want to experience life as it is. Experience is the best teacher naman, diba? Kaya din hindi pa ako nagkaka boyfriend. Because I'm too shy to confront other boys.
And you know what's the saddest part? I can only talk to them freely when I'm drunk.
Ma, Pa, I don't want to rebel anymore. Someday, soon I hope, I'll be able to talk you out of this matter.
Oh, and I love you no matter what.