here i am again with the same !@#$.
Last day of december, the night before the year ends, at exactly 7:48pm
you texted and i surprisingly read the text that says
"hapi new year ____. :* thank u 4 making my 2011 wonderful.
Iloveyou. Imissyou. Godbless!"
that probably was the most surprisingly thing you did after 2 months, and after the last i love you's and i miss you's you said.
and that night made me hope for and decide to continue this relationship. the confusions pops out of my head.
but just after the year starts, confusion is here with me again.
i dont really know if those (what i feel, see or hear) are the answers.
before i asked my classmates with what is better a YES or a NO randomly or
if i will LE AVE or STAY.
majority says NO without knowing the real thing behind the question.
i ask HIM always before i go to sleep or whenever i go to church.
asking if what would be the right thing to do.
to LEAVE or to STAY.
i dont know if what i perceived were for NO.
the dream i had last dec. 5, the times im gonna see her around, the posts in your walls or the picture that slaps me twice in a row just this day.
this thought might be a PMS(pre-menstrual syndrome... lol not what you think girls) but it might be for a purpose as well.
still, up to now, i dont know the answer.
i dont know why i love you this much. that whenever im in a jeepney on my way everywhere go, i think about the possible things i could do with you. the movie and food trips bonding, the sundates and all. gaahhh!! i miss the old days.
