FAILUREIt's one word you're dreaded to hear.
Once it enters one thing you're trying to achieve, it's so depressing. You'll feel like you would never want to move on. It's like climbing a flight of stairs with thousands of steps just to see that there's nothing at the top.
But as i've experienced it, FAILING is very healthy. Failing is very inspiring. Failing is like having millions of chances again.
It might seem too long but it's something to inspire you. Something to let yourself be proud and say that "I'M A FAILURE."
'ERE IT GOES...
UP, DLSU, ADMU. Ah. The top three. Entering those universities for college seems like winning a million bucks! When you say "Lasallian", "Atenean" or "Iskolar ng bayan", nothing beats the feeling. A lot of people have tried. Many have failed, many became glorious. So I, too, tried my luck. Hoping that I'll emerge as one of the glorious ones too.
BUT NO!I FAILED.... 
It's like i've fallen from the 100th floor of a building. Ended at the bottom with just broken bones. Alive but helpless. Lucky but damned for life. That's how I would describe the feeling back then.
It really hurted when I've learned that I've failed my entrance exams. All of my plans and dreams just went to the waste bin.
I started blaming myself for not being diligent in my studies. I also accused in my mind my teachers for screwing up my recommendation letters and papers. I just started blaming everybody. Even God...
At that point in my life, I never did tried any single entrance exam anymore. "WHAT'S THE POINT?" I used to tell myself. "ANY SCHOOL STILL OPEN FOR ADMISSION WILL BE FINE." I was even at the point of my life where I'm considering not entering college anymore.
My brother forced me to take the entrance exam in DLS-CSB. My mom even scolded me for not preparing for my college life. I didn't care. While they're talking, my mind's wandering somewhere else.
I took the exam and I passed. "OKAY." I thought. I wasn't even overjoyed or never did I remember being in a state of bliss when I've learned that I passed DLS-CSB. And to tell the truth, I hated the school because of it's infamous reputation of being a "bagsakan".
But you know what? God really has plans for me. When I've started picking myself up again, I prayed to God and told him that my failure won't be a hindrance to my goal. It's never too late. So I asked him for guidance. And alas, he guided me every step of the way.
But you know what?
If I never experienced studying for a year in DLS-CSB. I never would've met such wonderful people. My m1k family. And I would never had had the chance to prove to myself that my notions about csb are ALL WRONG.
If those people only knew how wonderful it is studying in benilde and how bloody it is just to pass a single exam. Mediocrity will lead you to nowhere. Excellence is the key to every opportunity. If they could only experience pleasing the fantastic and intelligent professors in csb. Then they'll know how grueling the process is. And also, if they only had the chance to know how amiable, funny, sensible and warm the Benildeans are. Then they would never leave the institution. And to those people, piece of advice: DON'T JUDGE A BOOK BY IT'S COVER.
I was so thankful to God for bringing me to Benilde. I was more than contented. But my dream was still alive. I never gave up my hope of someday, studying in dlsu, admu or up.
So I decided giving it one last shot. I applied for transfer in up and admu. I told myself:
"Lord, please give this chance to me. You know how hard i've tried. This is my last chance to fulfill my dream. I believe that you'll unfold your plans in due time. And I hope this is one of your plans."I took up the acet...
I applied for the business economics program and theatre arts...
guess what?
I PASSED BA THEATRE ARTS, UNIVERSITY OF THE PHILIPPINES- DILIMANONLY TWO TRANSFEREES QUALIFIED!!! AND I'M THE SECOND ONE!
I can never describe how happy I am right now. It's the greatest 18th birthday gift ever! No regrets of studying in DLS-CSB. In fact, it's one of my most treasured experiences ever!
I've learned a lot thru my failure...
*YOU CAN HAVE ALL BUT NOT AT ONCE
*GOD IS GREAT AND GOOD AL THE TIME. JUST TRUST IN HIS PLANS
*NOTHING BEATS THE POWER OF A PRAYER
*NOTHING CAN COMPARE WHEN A LOT OF PEOPLE PRAY FOR YOU
*HOPE ENDS WHEN YOU STOP BELIEVING
*FAITH STOPS WHEN YOU GIVE UP SEARCHING
*YOUR FAILURE IS YOUR KEY TO SUCCESS
*ENDURANCE IS YOUR KEY TO SURVIVAL
*COURAGE IS YOUR SHIELD
*AND GOD IS THE FIGHTER, ALWAYS AT YOUR SIDE. NOT TO FIGHT FOR YOU, BUT TO FIGHT WITH YOU.If I never experienced pain, I would never know God was a healer. If I never experienced suffering, I would never know God was a comforter. And if life was perfect, I would've never known God at all.
I HOPE I'VE SHARED SOMETHING MEANINGFUL AFTER YOU'VE READ MY STORY. SO DON'T BE AFRAID OF FAILURES. IT'S PART OF LIFE. AND NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, LIFE MUST GO ON. JUST TRUST IN GOD'S PLANS. NOBODY SAID LIFE WOULD BE EASY; BUT IT'S JUST WORTHWHILE.
GOOD DAY AND GOOD LUCK IN ALL OF YOUR ENDEAVORS TEENTALKERS. JUST PRAY. IT'S THE SUREFIRE THING TO GET YOU THROUGH EVERYTHING.
DISCLAIMER
*I hold no grudges against dls-csb. i soo love the school!
*I don't hold very high up, dlsu and admu. it's based on my opinion. each and every school has it's own specialty; And every person has unique skills and abilities to contribute to the welfare of humanity.
guys, please pray that I will also qualify for the business economics course in up diliman. thank you so much. please pray for me. A BENILDEAN AT HEART AND
PROUDLY AN ISKOLAR NG BAYAN.
