I hate the fact that I am starting to see bits of you in some of my favorite things in this mundane world.
You are like one of my favorite books. The one that hurt me the most. The one that made me shed a lot of tears. The one that I couldn't just forget. The one that had me emotionally wrecked. But amidst all of these, I still love it. It made me feel something—exactly like what you did to me. Like the book, you have no idea that you have this some kind of effect on me. I hope you stay that way. Oblivious. Unaware of the fact that there is someone like me who admires someone like you.
I hope you stay that way. Oblivious. Unaware of the fact that there is someone like me who admires someone like you.
You are like one of my favorite songs. The one that made me dance or stomp my feet even if someone's watching. The one that lightens up my mood whenever I feel down. The one that I could play on loop during trips. Like the song, you have no idea that you make me feel happy. I hope you stay that way. A happy pill. A constant source of bliss.
I hate the fact that even though I see you in some of things that I love, I also see you in some of the things that I want to avoid.
You are like a virus. The one that got into my system and caused havoc. The one that made me realize that even though you have applied safety precautions, you would still get infected. The one that got stuck for so long. The one that was so hard to eliminate. Like the virus, you have no idea that you have the ability to cause great damage. I hope you’ll change that part. Destructive. Leaving its victims powerless.
I hate this. It has been months and it's getting worse each and every day. This is totally rubbish and I want to throw all of these to the river of unwanted feelings just to end this. Just to clean up this mess. Just to reorganize my thoughts. Just to tell the bloody universe that I want to protect myself from the hazardous effects of that four-letter word. It's not that I don't have the guts to jump into the void. It's just that I'm being my usual self—always having that "think before you act" kind of mentality. But please, don't get me wrong. Someday, at the right place and at the right time, I'm going to take that leap of faith.
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