Four months and these feelings haven't faded yet. Well, I'm pretty chill about it. It's new and all but I'm enjoying it. For these many months, I've been learning a lot, like I learned to look at things in an even more positive lighth. Some things may hurt but if you just see through it deeply and look at the bright side, it wouldn't actually hurt. You'd start thinking about the good stuff, without getting your hopes up too high. I think it's just about being optimistic and that's good.
The fact that I've got no plans to tell you about my feelings for you makes everything smooth. We got closer, friendship has gotten deeper, you became more open with yourself, which made me really happy every time. There came moments that I remember I'm in love, and I thank God because I think this experience is a whole new adventure. A new journey I am taking and would probably lead me to something great and awesome.
The first time I felt these feelings for you, I asked why of all people, it had to be you? Now, I couldn't be more grateful that it was you I fell in love with because I realized, you are one in a million. As I try to look back on how all these have started, I cannot comprehend how it mattered so much to me up until now.
It's funny how most of the things I encounter remind me of you. Seems like everywhere I go or with some things I do, we had a shared memory. Like this one time I was walking down the street, and I suddenly remember when we walked there together with some friends, or the time when I saw a guy with a good pointed nose, I somehow saw your nice nose through him. Weird, right? But that's what's happening.
Seems like everywhere I go or with some things I do, we had a shared memory.
The most significant lesson that I learned is that I'm able to control my feelings. I don't drown myself in thinking of you so much (yes, I think of you a lot but no headaches), I don't put all my time figuring out words to post in my blog, or whatever. I knew my limits, my boundaries. And I think it's one of my greatest lesson so far.
Even just with this post, I want to say thank you. Thank God because you happened in my life. If I said before that you're the worst and best that has happened to me yet, well the truth is, you're not the worst, you're simply the best.
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