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I am on the edge.

At this precise moment, everything is changing before my very eyes. I am in my last year in college and as I remember the years, the wonder years, I recall faint laughter and soft smiles amid dark nights and dead-ended alleys. Whenever I look at myself in the mirror, I see that I have outgrown the fickleness of grade school but I have carried with me traces of high school. I look at myself and I see the paths I’ve taken to get me where I am now. I can smile, because I know it all mattered.

I thought last year, the year I turned eighteen, was very fitting. I started opening myself to possibilities, grabbing every opportunity, seizing the day. It was like a big metaphor for what you see on TV—of how girls make their grand debut to be recognized by society. I used to be so scared of doing things, not knowing I was also refusing to let myself grow. I started knowing better, and I started getting better.

A lot of things happened because I finally learned how to make the distinction between opportunities that will make me and opportunities that will break me. Count this as one of the things you ought to remember during the course of your life: know what’s good for you. Engage yourself into things that you think will help you become a better person. Do not be afraid to make mistakes as long as you take the lessons with you as you go along.

All this, because by looking back, I see where I want to go. As college ends, and as I start here as a part of Candy‘s 10^th Council of Cool with my lovely and talented friends Alekx, Cre, Jaz, Jesselle, Keisha, Mars, and Vicky, I look forward to endless possibilities.

Take this journey with us. Let us know about yourself, tell us things, ask us questions, give us comments or say anything at all. We will be more than glad to hear from you!

I have all the beginnings and endings at hand. I am who I was, who I am, and who I will be: me… And I am bound to make it the best me that I could ever have.

I used to feel that I have been standing still while the rest of the world kept moving, moving, moving, but now I know that I have been moving with it all along. All it took was some perspective.

I am on the edge of something new, of something beautiful and I’m ready to freefall into the unknown.

“But now I know: I’m a person something can happen to. I never guessed. I always thought I was going to be the kind of person nothing ever happened to. I’d have to stand in the background of all the class photos, being blurred to everyone, and blurred to myself.” —Gregory Maguire, What The Dickens

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