How are you?
If you asked me that question three months ago, I would probably answer that I'm better without you—a sign that I still cared, that I still thought about the past. A sign of how much I convinced myself every day that yes, I was better without you.
It is sad to think that I used to believe I have fallen for you. And yet now, I've understood that it's not you I've fallen for. I actually just fell for the idea of you. I have forgotten that nowadays, it's hard to talk to someone over the Internet. You can tell someone what they want to hear without actually meaning it. We've done that to each other so many times. You can also be a completely different person to just about anybody. And by now, I've realized that you were never you and that I was never me. We were simply an illusion of friendship or love or whatever it was that we tried hard to make out of us. We barely even talked face to face. It was hard for us to really see each other because we were just different online, on the screen, on the phone.
How are you?
I guess now, I'm a little happy. You lost your effect on me. Gone are the days when your presence used to pinch my heart. This summer, I've become a better version of myself, more mature. I don't think I'll be falling for anyone anytime soon. I hope you realize that if ever there was a part of you that was real, that you shouldn't doubt yourself, and that you're more than what you think you are. Thank you for teaching me a lesson.