"Love is not about sacrifice. It's about sharing your own world with another person. But I can't share my world to you right now."
When you told me that, I didn't know what to feel. You told me you love me but that you cannot love me more. You said that you can't give your heart to me because your heart is somewhere else. You said you have too many responsibilities. Your alibis piled up and I didn't know which one to believe. And I couldn't do anything; I can't scream at you or blame you because your alibis are true. I couldn't leave you.
I love you. I really do. But I came to a realization that I should let myself experience this pain and learn something from it instead of running away. I promised you that I wouldn't leave you and I'm still keeping that promise. You told me that you have your own life and I have mine, and that we shouldn't limit ourselves to the vicinity of our own little world. I agreed to that. I agreed to what you said that things will change and you will not be able to meet my expectations. I agreed to be your unofficial girlfriend. But I never agreed to the setup that it came to a point that you don't care about me even just for a bit.
I am hurt. I need your attention. I need you, but right now, it seems that you couldn't give me that.
Maybe life is teaching me to not limit my world to yours. Maybe it's teaching me to explore more. But I couldn't understand how you can still love me without giving me your heart. I don't want to be an option to you, a mere second choice. I don't want to be the sprain patient versus the gunshot wound in the rule of triage. Because mind you, I have been everybody's least priority but I can compromise. Really. Keep in mind though that I have a bursting point. I can and will blow up when I reach that.
I have been everybody's least priority but I can compromise. Really. Keep in mind though that I have a bursting point. I can and will blow up when I reach that.
So, when you said that love is not about sacrifice, I would have to disagree on that. I am sacrificing for whatever we have right now to keep it stable. Love is about sacrifice, but it's more than that. Love is about compromise and surviving problems along the way. Love is about how hard you fought in the war, whether you win or not in the end.