I was sophomore and he was a freshman when we first met. Although we were friends online, we really didn't talk to each other in school. I thought to myself, "You're the kind of guy I would never have a crush on." But you know that whenever we think that way, there's a chance that we'd end up falling for the guy. Of course I was wrong about him. Little by little, his sense of humor and smile made me fall for him. I decided to hide my feelings because he liked someone else. I swore to myself that I'll stop after two weeks.
But even when I was already in third year, I still had feelings for him. I really wished there was an undo button because I have been secretly liking him for a year already. So when he shared a status about his crush, I asked him who it was. I secretly assumed it was me. There's a part of me that still hoped. But I was wrong. After that, my feelings for him was somehow slowly faded away.
When he shared a status about his crush, I asked him who it was. I secretly assumed it was me. There's a part of me that still hoped. But I was wrong.
Months have passed since our last conversation. But my friend got some news that he actually confessed he had a crush on me. I didn't know how to feel or what to feel. Although I was happy, I also had doubts. I wanted to know the truth from his very own lips, but I didn't have the courage to confront him about that.
The day came when he finally told me that he likes me. He said that he was just scared to confess and tell me the truth. He was scared that he'll ruin what we had. After his confession, I still did not tell him my feelings. Knowing that he liked me too was enough for me. It just didn't make sense when he was already seeing someone else.
Knowing that he liked me too was enough for me.
I was already in my last year of high school, yet he's still the first person I wanted to see every day. I realized then what I truly felt about him. Come prom night, he danced with me to my favorite song. It was our first moment alone.
He was my first crush, and I finally got the chance to hold his hands. It was magical, almost like a fairy tale. It was almost love. I was almost in love.
A month before graduation, I finally had the courage to confess my feelings. Unfortunately, he already had a mutual understanding with another girl. It just didn't work out between the two of us. He confessed that he liked me again when I was in college, when I was already committed to someone else. He told me he's willing to wait. I was just confused. But the moment I saw him, my feelings for him suddenly returned. I really missed him. I thought he felt the same way, but I was wrong again.
While I was waiting for him to get in touch with me, he was spending time with another girl. That was the first time I cried over a guy. I thought he'll wait for me. Maybe it was my fault because I believed his words.
I should've realized earlier that he was not meant for me, because I saw him dancing with the girl he liked to my favorite song, too. Even though he made me feel so special that night, I knew in the end his heart belonged to someone else.
In teenage life, I've realized that you are allowed learn in love and not just fall in love. You're going to meet a person who will let you discover your different emotions. The idea of love allows you to feel the joy, kilig, and pain in order to grow, to mature so that when the right time comes you will be ready.