It has been years since you last saw him. Times were easier and happier then. But he broke your heart. You were loved and then suddenly, you weren't. It's easy to write it down because things look simpler in words. It doesn't get to you until you read your feelings out loud, emotions bursting from your chest, mind going wild with memories—things you wish to forget but can't.
You believed in destiny and then suddenly, you didn't. You didn't believe in second chances either, because you didn't want to get hurt again. So you occupied yourself with anything that would make you forget him. It worked for the most part, but the memories would visit you in your dreams and those made so much difference.
The day you saw him again, you didn't want that moment to count. You've finally made yourself believe that everything was going well until you saw him again. Weeks turned into months as you were forced to talk to him again. You tried to focus and things were fine for a while, but that wasn't enough for him. You knew right away what he wanted as soon as you loosened up around him, feeling the ice melt and vanish. It was happening too fast, but what was there felt less solid.
Was this a second chance in the making? You didn't know anymore. The feelings were still there, better than ever and truer than before. But you knew without forgiveness, none of them will matter. You know you weren't ready for something new.
The Earth keeps spinning, and you will never forget him. Can't you see? He brings so much light into your life and he means more to you than he'll ever know. To forget him, it's not as easy as flicking off a light switch because love never came so easy. With every turn the Earth makes, you look for him, silently in your dreams. It's always been him, but you try to deny it with every attempt to forget.
You can't ignore forces like these, just like the pull of gravity. The Earth spins around the sun, dancing its way through another year. But no matter how far or how long the distance between you two, you'll always be pulled back to each other, held down together no matter what. There's seven billion people in the world, so that definitely is something special.
If you don't want to say it's destiny, just see him as your gravity instead, your grounding force.